Are people truly capable of changing?

I ask myself this question because my sister’s husband, whom I never liked, is all of a sudden a decent human being. My sister has been married for almost 13 years and I have never liked the guy. He has always been inattentive and condescending. I normally only see him once a year during the holidays and over the years he has been changing. This year when they showed up at my house for Christmas he seems like a completely different person.
My sister had surgery two weeks ago and is not able to walk. Right now she is constrained to a wheel chair and to a recliner. Throughout this whole ordeal he has been very attentive towards her, making sure she eats the right kinds of food, gives her a bath every day, and takes care of her wound. Not only that, he feeds and makes sure the kids are doing what they are suppose to do and cleans house.
How does someone go from being a total and complete jerk a few years ago to this?

Are people truly capable of change or is this change temporary?

Fire!!!!

I was driving to work this morning and I saw smoke coming from the general direction where I work and at that very instant I wished it was my office building that was burning so that I didn't have to go in to work today.
It was then that I realized I need a new job or a new position.

Birds of a Feather Flock Together.

Is the old adage true? Do individuals of like character tend to stay together?
A friend of mine had a small gathering over the weekend and I was invited. When I got there and started mingling with the other guest I quickly found out everyone there had issues. One of the guest is on medication to help him with his abandonment issues, another is on medication for depression, another has self esteem issues, and another one brought her gay boyfriend and she really didn't have a clue he was gay. Through out the night I kept meeting people with similar issues, luckily it wasn't a big party.
So I started thinking, if all of the host's friends have issues and the saying is true, am I as bad as these people? And if I am, are my friends a good representation of who I am?

Update on Life

It has been a long time since I have made an update to my blog, so here is an all inclusive update on life as I know it.

School is over and done with for the semester. I don’t have to start back up with school until January. I am going to use the next month to relax and do absolutely nothing. I plan on reading a lot and catching up on all of the books that I have on my “To Read” list.

Tomorrow I start my meditation class. I am going to a Zen Monastery and I am going to learn to relax and clear my mind, something that I am not able to do on my own. I am really excited about it.

There really isn’t much to report on the love life. Or nothing I want to publish for all to read anyway.

The project I was working on for work is complete, well the first phase is anyway, and everyone has been coming by and telling me what a great job we did. Which makes me feel great, especially after all I had to go do make sure things went the way they were suppose to. According to everyone, it was the smoothest project in our work history, which says a lot about the people we had on the project. My stress is finally over, I can go back to sleeping and working normal hours. I have even been leaving early this week.

The second and third phase of the project have begun. The second phase is not going to be as hard or require me to be so dedicated and the third phase mostly involves the broker and the software company. Life is great.

Is the word Awesome making a come back? I have heard more people use the word Awesome these last few days than I have all year. Am I just so out of the loop on this or is such an early 90’s word? Next thing you know we are going to be walking around saying SWEET.

First MBA Semester

As of today I am officially finished with my first semester of my MBA work. I have completed my last paper and I will be turning it in shortly.
It wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be, it was definitely a lot of work but nothing that I can't handle. There isn't anything I can take in the mini-mester so I am done for a while.

I am going to catch up on my reading, world events, and social life.

Blond Moment Two

I have been having way to many blond moments lately. I think it is partly due to the fact that I am overworked and sleep deprived.
On Saturday morning I was having a pancake breakfast with Dameyun and I was trying to pour syrup on my pancakes and instead I poured coffee on my pancake's. Luckily it only got on the top one and I was able to eat the other two. I was so embarrassed, here I am with a guy I somewhat like and I am being a total dumb ass. He thought it was funny and we just laughed it off. By Wednesday I should be all caught up on my sleep and I won't have to work so much, I see the light.

I feel like a blond

I went to Blockbuster to return a movie and I figured that I would run by the library and return a book on the same run since both are relatively close to each other. I got to blockbuster and I had so many other things on my mind that I dropped the book off in the Blockbuster drop box and when I got to the library I noticed I still had the movie with me. I had to go back to Blockbuster and ask for the movie back, it was rather embarrassing especially since it was the cute guy that works there that was at the return counter.
There goes my chances of going out on a date with him.

Black Like Me

I made an amazing discovery today. I discovered the public library. I went to the public library for the first time in almost nine years. I was amazed to see that they still had me in their system and did not have to re-apply to get a new library card. I went to the library to do some research for my Human behavior paper, which I am happy to say is about 95% complete.
I should be working on my stats paper but decided to make an entry instead.

While at the library I wandered through my favorite sections at the book store and found some really good books on religion and cultural issues. I decided to get two books, 1. The Hispanic Condition by Ilan Stavans and 2. Black Like me by John Howard Griffin. I imediately started to read Black Like Me and put my research aside.

For those who have not read Black Like Me here is a synopsis. The author, John Howard, changes the pigment of his skin to try to get a feeling of how it truly felt to be black. Keep in mind that this book was written back in 1959 and the racial conditions of the time were a lot different. Every time I saw the words Negro and nigger I was surprised and I had to remember what I was reading. Back to my summary, at first I was concerned that the author was going to be biased and that simply changing his skin color was going to give him a an accurate view of what was going on in the south but I believe that as time passed and he lived the life of a black man he got to experience the same things blacks did back then. Another thing that concerned me was that there are certain cultural norms and standards that are ingrained in all of us and not having grown up black he would have missed some of those things. But so far I think he is doing a great job. I am only on page 89 and I still have a ways to go before I finish but it looks like a great book.

Pick it up and let me know what you think.

Stress

I don't think I am handling stress as well as I use to in my younger days. Before I was able to work better under stress but these days with everything that I have going on it seems like I am more frazzled that normal. I can't wait for classes to be over in two weeks so that I can actually take a moment to relax and rest. My classes and the big project I am working on at work both end on the same day, on the 15th of November I am going to want to celebrate. You guys better be ready for me.

Thanks for the Memories

What do you say when something that could have been, something that was, or something that you wanted to be is over. I guess there really isn't much to say except "Thanks for the memories."

People...people..who need people...

I stayed home today because I was not feeling well. I woke up late, did some homework, took a nap, I did all of the things you should do when you are home but really should be at work. :)

I am not normally at home during the day and I am sure that neither are any of you that read this, but do you guys realize how many people come around and ring your doorbell while you are gone?
Just today I had Nanette(?) come by and try to sell me magazines.
Jim came by and tried to sell me service for cable.
And I had religious people come by and invite me their church.

So I started to think, what if they really weren't with these organizations and were just the decoy to come to your house, find out if someone was home, and if nobody is home they call their back up and the take everything you own. What if?

Can you tell I am bored? Staying home is not as fun as I thought it was going to be but I did get a lot done.

People, People who need people. Are the most wonderful people.....(sing along with me).

Damn Religious People!!!

O.K. I confess...I don't hate republicans. What I do hate are those over the top religious fanatics who go around imposing their believes on other people!!!

Comments from October 13 Posting

That jerk probably believes that everyone who is not catholic is going to hell!! What ever happened to not judging your fellow brothers and sisters? I really hope god takes compassion on his/her soul for all of the hatred he/she is spreading around.

Damn Republicans!!!!

That is the first thing I thought when I got home from work today and my Kerry/Edwards lawn sign was in pieces on my front porch. I was so mad!!! After my first sign was stolen and with all of the reports of signs being removed from yards by republicans, that was the fist conclusion I jumped to.

Later, I went back outside and I noticed that my yard had been mowed and I realized that my neighbor was probably out moving his yard with his riding mower and just decided to do mine while he was at it. I have been so swamped with work and school work that I was relieved that I did not have to do it myself.

I probably shouldn't have prematurely accused the republicans. I love my republican and democrat brothers and sisters alike.

My birthday will never be the same again!!!

There is a new position that became available in our department and they have asked if one of my employees is interested in applying. It is not just one of....it is the best employee ever. I talked to her about it and she has decided to leave my department because it is a promotion. I am very sad, I want to cry. Why would they deliver this horrible news on my b-day? I don’t even feel like celebrating anymore.

Horrible news!!!

Fear

We all know what are the things we need to change in our lives to make them happier but at times we are unable to make those changes.
Our heart tells us what it is we need to do, but yet we ignore it.

What is it about fear that leaves you paralyzed? What is it about the unknown that keeps you from making changes?

I have reached a new low!!

Yesterday I was at Sam’s with Sarah and Will and we got hotdogs to keep us from starving before dinner and as I was eating my hot dog all I could think about was how many calories were in it and how long it would take me to burn it off if I went for a jog. I was planning on going for a jog at the park once I got home but luckily it started to rain so I no longer had that option. When I got home I was going to get on the treadmill but after thinking about it I decided I was going to fight the fear of gaining weight. I enjoyed the hot dog and it was GOOOOOD.

Did you guys ever see the commercials that were meant for teenage girls? They would talk about issues such as beauty, weight, etc and at the end it would say “Girlfriend, you are beautiful!” and that is how I felt after that having that internal dialogue. Cesar, you are beautiful (no comments from anyone) even if you were to have 10, 20, or 30 pounds extra.

Paulo Coelho

I have a new favorite author, he has written such works as The Alchemist, Eleven Minutes, and By the River Piedra I sat and Wept.

If you have not read any of his works I strongly recommend that you do.

Gift Suggestions

Most of you know I am horrible at selecting gifts for other people and will usually take the easy way out and buy gift certificates.
I need your help, Wade's Birthday is on October the 1st and I want to get him something good for his birthday. I thought about flying up there and surprising him but after looking over my budget last night I have decided that won't be possible.
Does anyone have any gift suggestion ideas?

No Se

Lo dice el o lo digo yo.

"Me Paso dias y dias delante de esos libros y cuadernos haciendo un esfuerzo sobrehumano para comprar mi propia esclavitud.

- Fatima from Paulo Coelho's A Orillas del Rio Piedra Me Sente Y Llore.

A Orillas Del rio Piedra Me Sente y Llore

Spontaneous

Who said I wasn't spontaneous?
I just purchased a ticket to go to San Francisco for the weekend. Spur of the moment, no prior planning. Who says people can't change.

It is either one of the craziest things I have ever done or the dumbest things I have ever done. But I was jogging and I a thought passed through my head and the next thing I know I am at home making flight reservations.

I am excited, I get to see Wade and spend some more time with him. We decided we were just going to hang out and spend time together, no heavy partying or wild and crazy nights. They are having a street fair so we will do that and we are also taking the ferry to Sausalito. I also have to go back and eat at In-N-Out and buy some chocolate.

Sometime between now and Friday I need to go get a digital camera to take with me.

Drugs = Good

It is amazing how good drugs can make you feel. I had some medical test done today and they had to put me to sleep and I feel amazing today. I got home around noon and I went directly to bed I woke up for a few minutes but went back to bed shortly after.
I feel more rested and relaxed than I have felt in a very long time. If it was up to me it would be a requirement to be sedated at least once every month.

The weekend

I had a pretty good weekend.

On Friday I went to the movies with Ivan, Chico, and Chico's friend Carrie. We went to see the movie Hero with Jet Li. The movie was really good, not as much martial arts as I would have liked but the colors and the symbolism were really good. After the movies Ivan and I went over to Starbucks and grabbed a cup of coffee and just talked. Well, I just talked. Ivan had to sit there and listen to me talk about Wade. After that conversation I promised that I will not talk about him as much, I annoyed myself.
Saturday was a pretty laid back day, I did a lot of house stuff and hanged out with family and friends. Nothing to terribly exciting.

Sunday we went to the Gay Pride Parade in Dallas, TX. It was my first time going and it wasn't as exciting as I thought it would be. There were way to many floats but they were all very plain. Next year I want to be on a float, so I need to get involved with an organization.

That is about it for now.

Oh, I got a call from Wade about 11:30 last night and...oh, I promised I wouldn't talk about Wade so much.

Silly Me Part 2

I admit....I have a problem....and admitting that you have a problem is half the battle. I sent him a text message earlier in an attempt to clarify what had been said and repair any damages. I believe my message went something like “Good Morning. I hope I didn’t scare you to much last night.”
His Reply:
“A better question would be what’s your intention? Given What you told me last night. What are you thinking?”

I figured we were better off having this conversation over the phone than through text messaging so I went home for lunch and we had another of our long conversations. It turns out my comments from last night lead him to believe I was not interested in him. I won’t get into to much details but we talked it out and we have come to the conclusion that we are both very interested in getting to know the other and we will continue talking and see where it takes us. He is still planning to come to DFW in the near future and we will have the opportunity to spend some time together and we will figure things out as we go along.

I am afraid of commitment, but he has made me feel the warm and fuzies that I have not felt in a long time and I think that deserves a shot. My heart may get broken or I may end up falling in love. It is a chance I am willing to take.

Silly Me

I don't know what it is about me, call it a defense mechanism, but every time I meet a guy that I like I always, unintentionally, push them away.
I was on the phone with Wade last night for almost two hours and we were just talking about our past etc. I don't know if I was to honest about the whole afraid of commitment thing....but I think I might have scared him.....why would anyone make an effort to start a relationship with someone who is afraid of commitment?
I am going to talk to him about it again tonight and try to explain myself. Hopefully I didn't scare him to much.

Digital Camera

I need a good, small, inexpensive digital camera. Does anyone have a good recommendation?

Wade

I was sitting in my 3 p.m. meeting when all of a sudden my pocket starts vibrating and it tells me I have a new message. I leave my meeting because I was hoping it was Wade :) and I retrieve my voice mails and it tells me I don't have any so I start playing with my phone and it is a text message (I never eve knew I had text messaging). The message was sent to me at 1:45 p.m. and it says

Yea. Crazy.

On Sunday night we were at a club and he asked me if I always say "Yea" and "Crazy" when there is nothing else going on. For the rest of the night he would look at me and just say those to words together. It was rather cute.

I told myself I wasn't going to call him, but after that how could I not? I am going to call him on the way home and see how he is doing. ;)

SF

I had a great time in SF these past few days. There was some unexpected drama but I had fun inspite of that.

I don't know where to start, I suppose the beginning is always a good place for that. I won't go into details but I will provide a summary of my trip.

Friday was a pretty uneventful day. We got there and we explore the city, we hit some of the big touristy stuff like the cable cars, and Lombard St. David, Kathy's brother, has pretty much taken control of the trip and I don't mind because we all wanted to do the same things and he had time to look at the maps, read the travel books, and do research on the city. After a few of the attractions it is very clear he does not know where he is going or what we are doing so I tried to take over and he gets upset. So I back down b/c he is Kathy's brother. And I like Kathy.

Maybe I should start by explaining who Kathy and David are. Kathy is my friend of six years and I love her to death. We have such a great time together every time we hang out. David is her gay brother who lives in Paris and who comes to visit once a year. I have only seen David once a year for the past few years and we have always gotten along just fine. Perhaps it is because there were always a lot more people around and it was always for a few hours. Who knows but it was always fine.

O.K. back to my story. The hotel we were staying at had cocktail hour from 4 p.m to 6 p.m. every day. I loved cocktail hour because we got to meet some great people that were staying in our hotel. The movie directory Marvin Catz and his wife were staying there and they were both nice people. The guy because a bit of a jerk after two hours of drinking but he was still fine.

I also met 4 gay guys (two couples) from Vancouver who were really cool. One of the couples has been together for 14.5 years, they were 18 when they met. I thought that was very encouraging. The other couple has been together for 5 years. All four of them were very cool people and Kathy and I got to know them more during the next couple of days. I exchanged information with them on Sunday, maybe we will keep in touch.

K, so after cocktail hour we headed off to a little Italian restaurant that had the best food in the world. The restaurant was very small and the line was out the door, we got there just in time so we only had to wait for 10 minutes, but by the time we left the wait was an hour and a half. The wait was worth it though. After we had dinner we decided to head over to the Castro, the gay district, and explore the bars. We were on the bus at 10:30 and they both asked me if I would mind going home. Of course I minded, we had been out all day and we had not done anything I wanted. So I told them and we went to the bars. We were at the bars and they were just boring people. After a few drinks I agreed to go because I was also very tired. It was close to 12 a.m. and it was 2 a.m. TX time. So we went home and went to bed.

The next morning I decided I did not want to hang out with them so I was going to go and explore the city on my own. If I heard the David talk about Paris and/or compare San Francisco to Paris one more time I was going to hit him. Or if he said "Reeealy" one more time..I swear....or if he complained about his food being to salty or if he said "uhmm, it's alright in (place of foreign city here)there is a little restaurant that makes the best (place whatever you are eating here)" one more time.....I just don't like the guy. He is so uptight, childish, and self-absorbed that I did not think I could spend another day with him.

Saturday was a great day. I went to the golden gate bridge and I met this nice Italian straight couple. I then went to Ghiradelli square and bought some chocolate, I went to the market, to Ffisherman's Wharf, and then I went to coit tower.
I was trying to walk to Coit tower and I got lost. I was heading into a dead-end street so I asked this black lady in her 40's for directions and that just started an immediate friendship. She was the funniest person ever. She was heading to the Safe Way to buy toiler paper for her neighbor who was in her 70's and could not leave the house. She said she would walk with me to the bus stop because it was way to hot to take the bus up there. And she was right, it was hot. After a 10-15 minute walk I headed to coit tower and had an amazing view of the city. After that I went to the Square in front of St Paul and St Peter church because they were having local artist displaying their art. At the square I met six Spaniards and I was chatting with them for a while. They had been in the US for almost a month and had been in Colorado, Vegas, Los Angeles, and were headed to NYC on Sunday. They wanted to go to SF's equivalent of Harlem and Spanish Harlem so I went to explore the city with them. We ended up getting lost and ended up off the maps we had. It was kind of scary, so we decided to turn back around and head to a more familiar place. We ended up in the black side of town and we did some exploring. They did not speak English very well so I had to translate for them. I like them they were a lot of fun.

After that I headed back to Cocktail hour at the hotel and I sat with the gay guys from Vancouver and just chatted. Kathy joined us later and her brother ended up going to sit with some old couple on the other side. Kathy and I had a great time and we drank way to much. After our drinks David tried to get the bartender, who was a really cool guy, to go with us to dinner because David want to talk to him about the politics in Burma. The guy kept saying no but David kept insisting, it was a little embarrassing. So off we went to a Thai restaurant that David choose. Kathy wasn't feeling good so we spent about 15 minutes in the restroom while she threw up and I held her hair back. When we returned we eat a bit and David is upset because we left him and because Kathy had to much to drink. I only wanted a soup because I wasn't hungry so I had my soup and I tried their food. The soup was pretty good but the food wasn't and Kathy made a comment about it and I agreed. Since David choose the restaurant it upset him and he told me "I am trying to have a good time with my sister but she choose to invite you ..." that was it. I went off on him. I had gone out of my way to make sure they had enough time alone and here he was telling me this crap? We got into an argument and Kathy joined in. It was pretty messy. I ended up leaving the restaurant and heading back to the hotel. I was so upset that I was crying as I got ready to go out to the clubs. I just couldn't believe it. I couldn't' believe it. Before I finished getting ready Kathy and David got back. David went off and Kathy stayed behind and apologized for David and told me that was the reason why her husband didn't want to go along.

So I went out to the clubs and I met some really interesting people. I met a guy name Wade and he took me to an after hours party and then we went back to his place. Wade is a great looking guy, he is Chinese, 5'9, 31, and he has a really tight body.

I went back to the hotel at 7:30 a.m. and had breakfast with Kathy and David and then went to bed for about an hour. I hit the town after I woke up but I was not feeling my best since I was very tired. I did not strike up any conversations with strangers that day. That evening we went to go see Beach Blanket Babylon and it was so funny. I had a great time. They went out to dinner afterwards but I did not join then b/c I was tired. I went back to the hotel and I had every intention of going to bed but after packing I decided to call Wade up and join him at a club that was half a block away from the hotel. To make a long story short...I did not return to the hotel until the next morning at 8:30'ish. Great times were had by all.

Monday I did some shopping before heading to the airport and when we go to the airport there was a flight that was going to be leaving in a few minutes so I decided to find out if I could take that flight instead of the one at 2:30 p.m.. It just so happened they had a few seats available and I was able to leave two hours earlier. Will picked me up at the airport so he got to hear the whole story in person complete with hand gestures, facial expressions, and all of the things that come with my story telling. We got home and Sarah came over and she got to hear it also.

I included a lot more details about Wade in my story to them so let me just say a few more things about him. I think he deserves at least a paragraph for making this trip special for me......
Wade is absolutely amazing. He is a great guy and I felt completely comfortable around him, it is as if we had known each other for a long time. I felt like I had a b/f in SF and it reminded me that having a b/f wasn't all that bad. We were walking down the street and he gave me a kiss on the cheeck and held my hand. We had some good pillow talk, he introduced me to his friends, and even checked up on me to make sure I had gotten back to the hotel o.k. He was perfect and I wonder what could have happened if we both lived in the same city. But being the realist that I am, I realize we will probably never see each other again or talk to each other again....so I will think of it fondly for what it was. Kathy asked me what the best part of the trip was and it was definitely seeing the view of SF from his apartment balcony while we held each other. Corny...I know...but true.

I am back from SF and I have stories

I will have to post about my trip later because right now all I want to do is go to sleep. I am very sleep deprived right now.

Proposition - NO MORE Bush and other ramblings

I was reading a news summary in the Dallas Voice titled Australian gays upset by new marriage law claim island, declare independence. A group of gay people in Australia who were upset on a ban over same-sex-marriage have taken over an uninhabited island in Australia. Their official flag is the rainbow flag (of course) and they will soon start printing pink money.

After watching the Republican Convention I want to do the same thing. Especially after President Bush's comment about how judges should not impose their personal beliefs on the country. What the fuck is this asshole doing? He is doing the exact same thing, he wants to impose his religions convictions on the rest of the world. I don't agree with him on abortion, I don't agree with him on the war, and I definitely don't agree with him on gay rights.

I have a proposition, I propose that we stop paying our taxes until we (gay and lesbian community) are treated and given the rights we deserve. Or we go find our own little island and declare independence.

I think it is going to take something drastic for this president to take notice and recognize we are an important part of this country. I feel like my hands are tied, I wish I could do something to speed this process along. Who knows, maybe with time we will have change. I don't want to wait that long. I will continue to be as active as I can and hope that others do the same thing.

If you are reading this, I hope you go out to the polls in November and vote for a change. Vote for Kerry.

Lucía Méndez, gira para gays y nuevo perfume unisex

Lucía Méndez, gira para gays y nuevo perfume unisex
MSN - News
http://latino.msn.com/entretenimiento/articles/830780.armx

La actriz y cantante mexicana es la de las que piensan que hay que buscar al público sea donde sea.

Ha causado sorpresa la gira que hará la veterana artista (de 49 años) solo por locales "gays" de Estados Unidos y México, que comenzará mañana martes en el "Score Night Club" de Miami Beach.

A los asistentes se les regalará gratis una muestra de su perfume "Lucía Méndez Exótica", que -con una fórmula que incluye feromonas- se anuncia en el local como "La esencia que enamora unisex".

En unas declaraciones a la prensa mexicana, Lucía Méndez dijo que tras un tratamiento de feromonas, "mi sensualidad se ha incrementado y noto que Arturo (su pareja) se siente mas atraído hacia mi".

La talentosa artista mexicana, que vive en Miami, se casó recientemente, en segundas nupcias, con el empresario cubano americano Arturo Jordan.

También reveló un secreto: le gusta que le besen los pies. "Me encanta, me pone muy cachondona".

La gira por Miami, San Diego, Los Angeles, San Francisco, Oakland (California), Houston (Texas), Monterrey y Puerto Vallarta, (México), ha sido anunciada para el público gay, al que califica como "sus máximos admiradores".

La diva mexicana aprovechará también para promocionar su nuevo disco "Vive", que incluye dos duetos con Mario Quintero de "Los Tucanes de Tijuana" y canciones, entre otros, de Juan Gabriel, Kike Santander y Frankie Marcos.
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Lucia Mendez - Diva?
Los gays son "sus maximos admiradores"?

No se, pienso que lo esta haciendo por que el resto de la comunidad latina se ha olvidado quien es. Pero quien sabe, esa es solo mi opinion.

Book: Dear Friends

Friends
Originally uploaded by kai7710.

I stopped by the bookstore today and I found a book that I found very interesting. It is called Dear Friends: American Photographs of Men Together, 1840-1918 by David Deitcher.

As the book suggest, there are a lot of pictures of men together. Although the people in the pictures have passed away and their identity is not known, some of the pictures have a homosexual undertone and some of them are clearly gay. There are pictures of men holding hands, caressing each other, or just posing with their leg on top of each other. There is even a picture of a man with a beard in a dress next to a man in a suit, clearly very gay. Although I don't think all of the men in the pictures are gay, it is very obvious that some of them are.

I guess what surprised me about the book is the bravery, if you can call it that, of the men who posed for these pictures. If people are not completely accepting of homosexuality in this day in age, I can only imagine what it must have been like in 1840. I am adding this book to my list of books to read; if you are in the bookstore make sure you pick it up and take a look at it.

I loved my weekend.

I had one of the best weekends I have had in a very long time. It is going to sound corny but I am going to say it anyway...I saw most of the people I care about this weekend. My friends...my family...life is good.

My friend Kerry came in from Minnesota to visit and we hanged out all weekend. Having her in the house made me wish I had a roommate but I wonder if I enjoyed it so much because it was Kerry and because I knew it was temporary? Regardless, we had a great time (or at least I hope she did too).

She flew in on Thursday and we got home from the airport around 10:30 p.m., we wanted to go to Don Pablo’s for their $2 margaritas but they were close so we decided to just go home have a drink and watch a movie. I made Sip-&-Strip and we watched Chocolat. If you have not watched this movie, I definitely recommend it, it was very good and it might have even been funny. Kerry and I kept laughing; it could have been that we were drunk or that the movie was funny. I don’t really know.
Friday wasn't as fun, I went to work and she ran errands. At night we went to my sister’s house for her b-day party. The food was GREAT.

Saturday we went shopping all day and I spent way too much money but I did get some really good deals. That night we were picked up Chico to go to the bars in gayville. When we got to Chico's house he had already been drinking, what a lush, a bottle of wine. He did leave some for us 
We met up with Ash and Seyd at the bars and later by one of their friends. We went to our usual bars…drank a little and danced a little.

Kerry left me today. It was sad to see her go but she called me a while ago and told me her husband was waiting for her at her apartment when she got there. I thought that was the sweetest thing because he had to drive three hours to see her. I knew that Darin was a good guy.

After I dropped Kerry off at the airport I went to my friend Sarah and Will's house, we ordered food and had a good chat. I am so glad they live so close to me, it helps them having them so close to me.

I have to go back to work tomorrow…..I am not looking forward to that. I think I am catching a cold, I hope I get over it before my trip next weekend.

Kerry/Edwards Lawn Sign

I put up a new John Kerry and John Edwards lawn sign up last night.
For those of you who have not heard my story here it is, I will give you the condensed version.

My last lawn sign was stolen from my yard and my bumper sticker was removed from my car. I don't know who would be brave enough to go to someone else's property and remove something that they have put up.

On to other news:

Last night I was invited to a lawn sign making party. A lady in Fort Worth purchased 1,000 signs with her own money, that is about $10,000 to $15,000 once you take into account the stakes, nails, etc.
Yesterday a bunch of people went to her house and helped her put the signs together. It was a little assembly line. Some people stapled, others nailed, stacked, and bundled. It was great. We were able to put most of the 1,000 signs together before the sun went down. She is selling them for $2 if anyone is interested. Once she is able to get rid of all of these she is going to purchase 1,000 more and distribute those as well.
I am really excited, I hope to see all of those 1,000 signs out in Fort Worth over the next few weeks. Next time I see a lawn sign in a yard I will wonder if it was one of the ones I helped put together.

Isn't activism great? Last night I felt as if I was actually making a difference.

School

So I start school on Monday and I at first I was looking forward to it but today I remembered how much time and effort you have to put into it so I am not so excited anymore.
The good thing is that the school I am going to has trimesters so I will be done with classes faster.

Wish me luck.

I snapped

I snapped at my boss today and it wasn't pretty. I feel bad for snapping at him, after all, he is my boss.
I just got tired of it. We were on one topic, and he was on another and trying to seem like he knew what he was talking about. He was making assumptions left and right and I rolled my eyes at him and snapped.
The good thing is that there was only one other person in the room so it didn't look to bad.

I will see how he treats me tomorrow. Hopefully he will overlook my snap because I did him the favor of driving him to his mechanics during lunch to pick up his car.

Reviews are coming up. :(

Schedule

Schedule
Originally uploaded by kai1007.

This is what my schedule looks like for the week. I am so good, that sometimes I am scheduled to be at two places at the same time.

New Building

We are in a our new building today and it is so nice.
I have never worked in a building were we have been the first occupants, it has a new building smell....concrete....plastic...you know, the new smell.

The views are amazing. On one side we have the Trinity River and on the other we have all of downtown Fort Worth. The lobby is marble and very modern looking. I have not really had a chance to explore the rest of the building because I have been unpacking but what I have seen has been really nice.

It took me 14 minutes to get to work, approximately 5.6 miles. It is a little closer than my old building but it takes me a bit longer because now I have to do all city driving and the traffic lights are horrible. I will be exploring new ways to get to work and back home this week. I hope to find a shortcut that will allow me to get home in under 10 minutes.

The Trinity Trails are right across from our building so I was thinking that instead of going home or to the gym and jogging that I could just change in the gym in the building and jog on the trails.

It is all very exciting.

Changing the Past

It’s amazing how easy it is to change the past.

I have been hanging out with an old friend who I have not seen in a long time and he started to talk about things we use to do when we were hanging out and he remembers things that never happened. In order for this story to make sense I have to confess a few of my sins before I continue. This friend and I were hanging out a lot and on ONE occasion we were both drunk and one thing led to another. That only happened on ONE occasion. But from our conversations over the last few weeks when he brings it up he remembers this happening a few times. How do you tell someone they are living in a fantasy world, that what they remember never happened?

Shocking Facts

I was doing some research for reports I am working on and I ended up in the US Census AIDS webpage. I was looking through some of the links and I was shocked to read some of these facts:

An estimated 37.8 million (between 34.6 million and 42.3 million) people were living with HIV worldwide in 2003

In 2003, an estimated 4.8 million (between 4.2 million and 6.3 million) people were newly infected with HIV

About 7 percent of the people in low and middle income countries who need anti-retroviral drugs actually received them in 2003.

Every day 2000 babies are infected with HIV during pregnancy, at birth or through breastfeeding. Without effective medical interventions, at last one third of the infants born to HIV-positive mothers contract the virus. Most of the infants that contract the virus will die before their fifth birthday.

Every day there are about 14,000 new HIV infections worldwide. Of these more than 95 percent occur in low and middle income countries and about 2000 are among children under 15.

It is a shame that in this day and age and with all of the advances we have made in the past years we still don't have a full grasp on the AIDS epidemic. The medication needed to live a healthy and normal life is so expensive that most people who don't have medical insurance are not able to afford it, and those people with medical insurance often have to do without other necessities in order to pay for all of their medication.

The good news, I heard on NPR the other day, is that a Swedish company is now manufacturing low-cost AIDS medication that will be distributed to the "third world" countries.

If you are not shocked, you should be. By now all of us know at least one person who is infected with HIV, and if you think you don't then you are just fooling yourself. You should be shocked that our governments have not spent enough money to edecuate the public. You should be shocked that medications are still out of the reach of most people. And you should be shocked that 14,000 people are infected each day.

Mending Friendships

I spent the weekend trying to mend old friendships and it was a bit more taxing than I thought.
For some of them I decided it was way to much effort for the friendship and for some others I decided to continue trying.

Horacio, for example, is one of those friends that I could do with out but we stay in touch because we have known each other for so long.

Then there is "Hawk", who I have known longer than Horacio and we may temporarily loose touch with each other but when we do see each other it is as if we had never lost touch.

There is also Miguel, who I see by accident once every year or so but every time we see each other we have so much fun.

I could go on but basically all of them fall in those three categories. Some are worth saving, others are just holding on by a frail string.

Poema incompleto

El viento sopla
fuerte, muy fuerte sin control.
Trato de sostenerme pero me siento devil
y no me puedo mas.
Pierdo el control y me caigo.
el viento me soplar
fuerte, muy fuerte para un lada y para otro.
El viento para temporarmente
y me caigo lentamente
como si estuviese sin vida.
Lento, muy lento
y me runo con las otras ojas en el suelo.

What Could Have Been

Have you ever wondered what your life would have been like if one or two things in your life had been different?

I was driving to meet friends for dinner this evening and as I was at a red light I looked over and saw a guy that had some resemblance to me. The guy was about my age and he was in his 4 door car with his wife in the passengers seat and two cute kids in the back seat. As I sat there I could see what my life would have been like had I been straight. It was strange, I sat there and imagined my whole 26 years of existence but with one major change, in my scenario I was straight and my life was totally different. As I kept on driving I thought of other aspects of my life that would have been different had I made other choices.

I thought of different scenarios and changed one small detail but the small detail changed the outcome of my imaginary life. As we go through our day to day activities and we make decisions most of the time we don't think of the impact these small decisions will have on our lives.

I have found my calling!!!!

As you guys may have noticed, I have not been as available during the day for the last few weeks. If you have sent me an email and I have not replied, or if you have left me a voice mail at work and I have deleted it.....I apologize.
I have been working on presentations and training for this week and it has kept me very busy.

My presentations started on Monday and the training started on Tuesday. I conducted two training sessions yesterday and I will conduct two more for the rest of the week. Each session is about 3 to 4 hours long.

I think I have found my calling, I have really enjoyed conducting training and doing presentations. Maybe I should go work for the company that we bought the software from, I am practically an expert on it now. Or maybe I can go work for MS and conduct their training.

Do you think I can find someone to pay me to do this for a living?

Yellow Wrist Bands

Does anyone know what the yellow wrist bands are for?
The last few days I have been seeing a bunch of people in my building wearing them and I have no clue what they are. They are just plain, yellow, rubber/plastic bands.

If anyone knows please let me know.

Horacio Update - Tales of Cheating and Drama, Lots of Drama

I got a call from my friend "Hank" today and he never calls me unless he wants to gossip. So we chat for about 20 minutes and I can tell he is building up to it and then.....BOOM there it is. He brings up the topic of my friend "Horacio" and wants to know if I have talked to him lately (see post from July 18 - Weekend Update). I haven't so I did not say anything. All of a sudden he is giving me all kinds of information about how Horacio's boyfriend is cheating on him. I didn't tell him I already knew and just let him continue talking. It turns out everyone knows except for Horacio and they want to get together next weekend and tell him. Horacio and his boyfriend are suppose to be signing a lease for a new apartment where the boyfriend, I will call him "Mike" for now, will be living. Everyone is all up in arms about it and want to tell him before he signs the lease and is committed to an apartment that he won't live in.

I called Horacio tonight to see how he was doing but him and his mother were at the hospital visiting his step-mother. I will call him again tomorrow to see how he is doing but I have already decided that I am not getting involved. I am way to old to be involved with all of this Drama. What is it about gay men and drama? Do you think we will ever leave this behind? I sure do hope so.

I know it sounds like I am being a bad friend, but Horatio already caught Mike cheating once when they lived in a different city and didn't do anything about it. I don't want to get involved because I know he won't do anything about it. Sure, he will huff and puff for a week, talk about how he sees everything clearly now, how he is empowered, how he won't be fooled again....but a week later they will be back together.

Just an update. I am sure I will be hearing more about this as the story unfolds. I hope they tell him soon so they all get it out of their systems.

Game Night

This past weekend my little brother was in town and I got to spend some time with him. On Thursday night we were up until 1 a.m. playing board games with my sister and we had a lot of fun. Through out the weekend when we were both home we would break out Jenga and play.

This weekend I decided to bring back Game Night. A while back I was having friends over to my house on a Friday or Saturday night and playing board games. We were all tired of going out so this was an inexpensive, safe alternative. We would play at my house, drink, eat, and on some occasions  get into discussions but it was always a lot of fun.

Sooo, I am planning on having a game night this coming month. It will be an alternative to going out and I know a few people are already tired of going out to the clubs every weekend.

There are a few drawbacks to doing this:
1. I have to clean and I am not looking forward to cleaning my house.
2. I can't invite everyone because my house is small and we won't all fit.
3. I have to clean.

Anyway, it should be fun and it will probably be the same people that I always invite. I know there are a few people that won't make it so I will invite them anyway just to be nice.

I can't wait. Maybe by then I will have a dog and it can be a Game Night/Meet My Dog Night.

 

Clutter

We will be moving offices in a few weeks so everyone is busy packing and cleaning their offices. I didn't think I had much up here but once I got started I found all kinds of things that I never even knew I had. Just for kicks, here are a few of the things I found....why I even brought them to work is another question:

1. Milagros (for those of you who don't know, these are little pendants sold at cathedrals in MX. You buy these and pin them on the wall and ask the saints to grant you a miracle)
2. Rolls of film (I wonder what's on them?)
3. Three bottles of contact lens solution.
4. Lots of packets of Honey (for my tea)
5. Kinder eggs (German toys)

Do you guys have anything interesting in your office? What is it and why did you think it was necessary to bring it to work?

Lessons Learned

I went to go see Bangi last night (see post from July 21, 2004) and it didn't go well.

 

Goals for the Weekend

I want to keep this weekend as simple as possible. I just want to enjoy it and relax. I have not done that in a while. So these are my goals for the weekend:

1. Get a Facial (gay I know)
2. Spend time with my brother
3. Visit with my friend Kathy
4. Shop with my friend Kathy
5. Mow lawn
6. Clean House
7. Maybe catch a movie
8. Maybe get a hair cut

 
That is it. All very simple, but all very stress free. I can't wait.

 

Dog

I know nobody believes me that I am going to get a dog anymore but I still keep looking. The reason I have not gotten one is because I have not found the right one.

But all of that has changed. I am in talks with the people who have the dog on the attached link to see if I can adopt her. I am so excited. Click on the link and tell me what you think.

Bangi!

 
Isn't she adorable?

Have You Ever?

Lost your debit card?

I went to the bank this morning to get cash and I was so distracted that I walked drove away without taking my card out of the ATM machine. I did not notice until 5 minutes later when I was driving to work, I turned around but my card was long gone. I immediately called the bank and it doesn't seem like any other transactions were processed.
Now I have to wait until August the 4th to get my new card. What am I going to do? I use my card for EVERYTHING, I never carry cash.

I am going to the bank during my lunch hour and I am going to try to get a temporary card issues.

Hi Ho, Hi Ho, Off to Work I Go

The first phase of my big project is coming to an end so I have been working a lot of hours lately. I normally like to work under pressure because I get more of a kick out of it but this time I feel as if I was causing more problems than I am solving. I know that is not the case but that is how it feels.
 
There are two things that bother me:
1. I feel like we should have caught some of the issues we are dealing with early in the project.
2. There are way to many issues.
 
Right now I just want to go eat. I am hungry and tired.
 
Oh, another thing that bothers me is that my psycho boss is going to try to take credit for the project. If she even tries I will tell her something. I am tired of her crap.
 
Other than that life is great.

Weekend Adventures

It was an interesting weekend. I took the GMAT on Saturday morning and I did not do as well as I had hoped so I decided to go out that night and drown my sorrows.
My test was in Denton so I had to leave my house at 6:30 to get there on time. There was hardly anyone on the road at that time so it was very quiet and peaceful. I turned the radio off and it felt a little weird. I felt very "little" in the grand scheme of things. It was a very good opportunity to think and reflect on decisions I have made and things I want to accomplish. I decided to take more early morning drives to the middle of nowhere more often and just think.  On the way back I decided to call my friend Tomas, we decided to go shopping so I picked him up. We ended up just driving around and going to different places. It was a lot of fun, we have not been hanging out a lot lately. Mostly because he has been out town a lot lately visiting a guy he is kind of dating in Detroit but there has been some friction between us lately. I am not sure what it is but sometimes I feel he is more critical of me than I am of myself. Sometimes I feel judged, but I am sure it is all in my head. He is a great guy and we always have fun together. We ended up going to a few places and we had fun.
 
Later that night my friend Fernando met me at my house to go to Chico's house. We were going to be meeting Ivan, his roommate, Leo, Ashish, and Seyd out at the gay bars. Chico, Fernando, and I went to the Village first because they are going to be closing it for a few months before they re-open as "Our Place" or some other crapy name like that. I ran into my old friend Dwayne and we talked for a bit, as I was getting ready to leave he gives me some good scoop about my friend "Horacio"  and his boyfriend. Apparently his b/f is cheating on him, something we have suspected for a long time and the reason why they broke up the first time, and just with him for the money. It was crazy, now I am debating whether I should tell "Horacio" or keep out of it. Any suggestions? "Horacio" and I have been friends for like 6 years and I don't want to see him get used. But I feel like he already knows what is going on but is turning the blind eye. I don't want to bring it up and him not believe me. Anyway, we will see how this plays out.
 
I ran into Kolon (sp?) at TMC, he is a guy that I use to have in my Spanish classes but we never really talked to much. I always thought he hated me because he use to give me some bad looks so I never made the attempt to be friendly with him. Since we graduated I have seen him out and about a few times here and there but he told me on Saturday that he will be moving to Minnesota (I loose another friend to that damn state!!!). I will definitely miss running into him. The funny thing is that I didn't even know his name until Saturday but every time we run into each other we are very excited to see each other. Strange, I know. I am going to try to get his contact information so that I can keep in touch with him. He is an interesting guy.
 
I didn't drink that much that night but for some reason the alcohol really got to me. Maybe I am just getting older. I felt fine when I woke up on Sunday morning but after about an hour of being awake I started to feel really bad. I ended up staying the whole day asleep which is very unusual for me. I would break out into cold chills and sweats. It was horrible. I don't think it was the alcohol because I didn't drink that much but it was definitely something.
 
When I finally woke up (around 5) I got up and went to my friend Sarah and Willis house. They were grilling hamburgers and invited me over. Their baby has been sick for the last few days so the baby was crying a lot. Hopefully the doctor will be able to give them something tomorrow to help her get over whatever she has.
 
That is it for my weekend.

San Francisco

I have decided to go to San Francisco with my friend Kathy and her brother David. Every year David comes to Texas from Paris and they go on a big trip together. I really like David, he is a pretty cool guy and he is about my age. He is also gay and has a b/f of like 5 years. The boyfriend is not going to be coming to TX with him so it should prove to be an interesting time. We don't really have any set plans but we have already agreed we will be going to the gay bars at night. I am not sure if that is going ot happen b/c he normally doesn't go out so I may have to hit the bars on my own. Which won't be a big deal because I usually do that anyway during the trip I take by myself once a year.
I have already told them I would probably be separating myself from them during one or two of the days we are there so they can do the brother-sister bonding and I can do the stuff that I want to do. Knowing Kathy and David we are going to have plans for every single moment of the trip but we are really not going to do anything. I love Kathy to death but she is not the best planner. And even when she does plan her plans usually get changed by the wind. 

I can't wait, I am very excited about this trip.  There are a few things I have to do to prepare for my trip:
1. I need to find a cool messenger bag
2. I need to buy some cool dress down/t-shirt type of clothes. (I will need Ivan's help for this)
3. I need to loose at least 10 lbs. (David is very skinny and I don't want to be the fat friend). 
I think that is all I need to do.

Have you guys been to San Francisco? Do you have any suggestions on what I should definitely see while I am there?

El Señor Madera

Pienso que estoy enamorado. Lo se, lo se...¿Cesar enamorado? pero creo que al fin me llego el momento para enamorarme. La verdad es que no conosco a este muchacho pero las ultimas semanas lo e visto en el edificio donde trabajo. Siempre lo veo en los pasillos o caminando por el centro. No se nada de el pero si se su nombre. Ayer tuve que ir al centro de producsion y hoy a alguin llamarlo por su nombre. Por el momento lo llamare El Señor Madera.
Que puedo decir del Señor Madera......es alto, guapo, delgado, y tiene una sonrisa que hace a mis rodillas temblar.
 
El Señor Madera.....asta que por fin entro a mi vida.
 

A letter from my Senator - Kay Bailey Hutchison

This email is in regards to an email to Kay Bailey Hutchinson stating my opposition to the Gay Marriage Constitutional Amendment. If Kay Bailey Hutchinson is your senator you can contact her at the following addresses.

284 Russell Senate Office Building, Washington, D.C. 20510-4304, Phone: (202) 224-5922, Fax: (202) 224-0776

10440 N. Central Expressway, #1160, Dallas, TX 75231, Phone: (214) 361-3500, Fax: (214) 361-3502


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Thank you for contacting me regarding same-sex marriages. I welcome your thoughts and comments on this issue.

Marriage laws have historically been the responsibility of state governments, and I generally oppose federal government intrusion into matters of state authority. Periodically, however, one state's action can have serious and far-reaching implications for other states, particularly because our Constitution requires states to give full faith and credit to
the laws of other states.

In 1996, the Defense of Marriage Act (DOMA) defined marriage as only between a man and a woman. I voted for this federal law, and I continue to support it today because I believe the traditional family unit should remain the foundation of our society. The recent decision by a narrow majority of the Massachusetts Supreme Judicial Court mandating same-sex
marriage threatens to overturn DOMA nationwide and effectively make that single state's marriage policy the law of our entire country.

In response, Senator Wayne Allard (R-CO) has introduced S.J. Res. 30, the Federal Marriage Amendment, of which I am a co-sponsor. This bill would amend the Constitution to define marriage in the United States as consisting only of the union of a man and a woman. Currently, S.J. Res. 30 is under review by the Senate Committee on the Judiciary. When this
legislation comes before the full Senate for a vote, I intend to support its passage.

I appreciate hearing from you and hope you will not hesitate to keep in touch on any issue of concern to you.

Sincerely,
Kay Bailey Hutchison

Poor Souls

I don't understand why people insist in getting into relationships that just aren't good for them. Why they would rather be with someone who doesn't make them happy than be alone and happy. I know, I know, they are just afraid of being alone. But that doesn't compute with me because I am not like that or at least I don't think. I am sure there are a few people out there that will think differently.
Why would someone get into a relationship with someone who has all kinds of drama in their life?
I just needed to vent. Some weird stuff has been going on the last few days and I wanted to make a vague comment about it.

Oh, Saturday how wonderful are thee

So far Saturday has been very productive.

I woke up early because Will and I were going to go and get new tires (see post from July 09, 2004). I only had to buy one new tire because my spare tire was a full tire from when I bought my car. So it wasn't to bad. After that we went back to Will's house and he washed my car. It looks so good now, I have not had a chance to get it cleaned in several months but now it looks brand new, well, that is a little exaggeration.

I came to work today because I have a lot to do and next week I will be in the office but not at my desk. I have meetings starting at 8:30 and they don't end until 4:30. I don't think I will be getting a lot done, I am just glad I have great employees who require little to no direction.
There is hardly anyone here today, I think I ran into three people total, so I was able to get a lot done. It is so different up here when there it is quiet and the phone is not ringing off the hook. My boss was up here also so we went and grabbed a quick bite to eat and had a nice little chat.

Now I am just ready to get out of here. Sarah, Will, Eli, and I are going to Oceans, one of my favorite restaurants tonight, and I can't wait to eat.

I hope you guys are having a good weekend so far. Be save!!

Flat Tire

Yesterday evening I was on leaving my house to meet a friend for dinner and as I was pulling out of my driveway I noticed that my car was leaning a little to the left. I turned back and I noticed that my drivers side passenger tire was completely flat. For most people this would not be a big deal but for me it was the end of the world (temporarily) because I don't know how to change a tire. What was a helpless gay man to do? I called my friend Will and he came over and changed my tire for me. I can't say I learned how to change a tire because I just watched while he changed it for me. It didn't take him long, maybe next time I will even give it a try myself.

My question to you is: How many of you know how to change a tire? Have you ever had to change one of your own tires?

4th of July

I had a very productive weekend and I am worn out. I decided to paint the living room and I had to start on Friday night taking down the wallpaper border. It was HELL!! I think it took me like three to four hours to get that accomplished. I was planning on redoing the bathroom next but the whole thing is wallpaper so I am going to put that off for a while and instead move on to my bedroom.
I have chosen a red color for my bedroom, it is not blood red, it is more like a dark wine/brown red. I think it is going to look very nice. I am only going to paint one wall so it won’t be to much work. It took me all day to paint the living room and I was tired.
My friend Chico came over while I was painting and we decided to go out to Gayville that night. I don’t know what I was thinking because I was really tired. I was up until midnight the night before working on the border, and I woke up at eight on Saturday to start painting. Bye the time we were getting ready to go out I was exhausted. Surprisingly I had a good time. We met Seyd and Ash out at JR’s and then we headed over to Kaliente.

On the 4th Sarah and Will invited me to go over to Sarah’s mom’s house for a cookout. Sarah’s mom is the best cook ever. The food was delicious. She has a new puppy, a tea-cup Chihuahua, that is just adorable. He is very small and very active. I briefly considered getting one for me but it is way to small. You would never be able to walk it and if you tried taking it for a walk you would end up carrying it for the most part. On Monday Will called and they guy that was selling them had one dog left, I think it was black and his name was Cesar. Isn’t that a coincidence? I thought it was fate, it was meant to be but then I remembered how I don’t like Chihuahuas and forgot about it.
Had it been a tea-cup poodle I would have considered it.

I also went to a bbq at my friends Bill and Scott (see previous posting). It was fun but I didn’t eat anything since I had already eaten at the other bbq. It was nice to see everyone again and catch up. We went to see Spider Man that night and I was very disappointed. I am not the best person to go to a theater with because I get very antsy sitting down for long periods of time unless the movie is really good and this movie just wasn’t. The only thing that made it tolerable was seeing Tobey. I never noticed he didn’t have any lips, despite that he is still cute.

Couples

I am tired of couples looking at me like I am the last single person on this earth.
I went to a bbq on Sunday for the 4th of July and EVERYONE there is dating someone. All of our conversations seemed to revolve around me being single, if I hear "Oh don't worry, you will find someone" one more time I am going to shoot myself. No, better yet, I will shoot the person who tells me. Yes, that is a much better idea.
I am single because I choose to be single (for the most part), if I wanted to be in an unhealthy relationship I would be in one.

It's a sad, sad day!

I have been working on a pretty big project for the last year and a half here at work. This project takes about 120% of my time and I am learning a lot of things that I would have not otherwise been exposed to. I am not a very technical person but for this project I had to pick up on the language and I had to develop an IT brain in order to survive.
Part of what made this project such a pleasure to work on was the people that are involved from within my company and from the consulting company. One of the guys from the consulting company is extremely smart, really nice, and a good looking guy. During one of my work related trips I had to opportunity to visit his city and we got together and had a nice long conversation. We were notified that he had resigned from his current company and would be going to work for a company based in the West Coast. I am going to miss him, he was a lot of fun to talk to and I still had a lot to learn from him.

Nothing in particular.

It was a very uneventful weekend.
My friend Kerry came back from her Honeymoon today and she came to pick up her bunny (did I mention I was bunny-sitting?). It was kind of sad to see Jax, short for Jacqueline, go back home. She has been keeping me company for the last week and I think I really need a pet. On to other topics.

I started taking a new supplement called Rev and it really screwed me up. All day long I was very jittery and did not feel my best. I was having these crazy thoughts about how little I have accomplished (I know it is not true, it must have been the pills talking) in my short life so I stayed really busy all day. It did make me think about some things I want to work on. I won't write to anything about them b/c I don't want to talk about it to much but hopefully these new ideas will keep me busy for a while. I love projects.

I made it a point to visit with all of my sisters and their families today. It was really nice to see the kids, they bring such a smile to my face. It really makes me want some of my own.

Sarah and Will came over for dinner and we had a nice little chat and now I have left-overs for tomorrow's lunch.

Life is great.

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The weekend

It was an interesting weekend.
On Friday I was my freinds +1 of 2 to a company thing he had to go to. The even it self was fun, it was like a "Who's Who" of gayville. The event was open bar so that made it even better, I don't think I would have been able to endure this event without the help of alcohol. I really do not like being in a room with that many gay people while they are all judging you and comenting on your hair, clothes, and shoes.
My friend had to go and mingle with the people since it was the company he works for that was putting on this event so I had the opportunity to speak with +2 of 2 (also known as Valley Boy or Nice Ass by others). We had met many times before but we had never had the opportunity to actually have a conversation and I found him to be a decent guy. He is actually a nice guy and is as normal as the rest of us. We had a good conversation about relationships and A LOT to drink.

After the event we decided to hit the bars and I had a blast. We hit a few of our regular bars and we went to all of the bars that we have always wanted to go to but were to afraid to try.
First stop was JR's and on the way there I ran into a girl named Kelly that I use to hang out with years ago. It was very uncomfortable.
Next we went to Havana and the drinks there were expensive so we probably won't be going there again.
Next on our Tour of Gay Dallas was The Metro. Metro is a gay black bar, we have always wanted to go but we were always to afraid so we decided to go tonight. Unfortunately we choose Lady's night so there weren't that many guys there so we have decided to go back another weekend when there are more people there.
Our fourth stop was ast the Eagle. The leather bar. I know what you are thinking but it wasn't as bad as you would have thought. I was actually a bit disapointed. +2 of 2 and I were both wearing business casual clothing since we had come from the company event so we did not fit in as well as we would have liked to so we did get a lot of looks. I did see some assless chaps but other than that it was pretty normal.
Next we headed to the Male Box. The dancers were cute but it was a bit trashy for my taste.
Our last stop on our night out was Kaliente. This is always a great place but that night the music was especially bad. We were only there for about 20 minutes and we went to dinner/breakfast at Victors Taqueria.

My neice got married on Saturday so I did the family thing for a while on Saturday night. Everytime I get around my extended family I feel so uncomfortable. I did get to see my aunt who I have not seen in a few months so that was great.

Ohh, my sister had a baby on Friday so I am an uncle again. He was a huge baby, 8 lbs 7 oz and 21 inches long. He is the cutest little thing.

That is all I have for now.

Alejandra Guzman

So...my friend who always gives me tickets to concerts sent me an email yesterday and asked me if I wanted to go with him to the Alejandra Guzman concert. I am so excited because I like her and I wanted to see her but she was selling her tickets in the $100 price range and I was not about to pay that much for a concert.

Sales

What is it about sales that make you want to buy things you don't need or want?
I just came back from lunch and the Pier 1 store off of Collins and 30 is closing so everything is 75% off. I almost bought three throws because they were really cheap. Luckily I was able to talk myself out of buying three of them and at the end only bought one. I was going to give the other two to my sisters but still did I really need to buy three? I bought a stool and a few other decorative items. At the end I walked out with $38 worth of stuff. Not to bad considering I usually can't contain myself around sales.

Thursday

Thursday was an extremely nerve racking day. I was fine for most of the day until I was asked if I was nervous about meeting up with my ex and that is when the nerves kicked in.
I really thought he was going to cancel on me again and at 5:03 he called to tell me he was running late and would not be there until 6 p.m.
We met up at our old coffee shop and we talked for two hours. There wasn't a moment of awkwardness, for the most part it was just two people having coffee and catching up on what has been going on in their lives for the past year. I felt really comfortable with him and at times it felt as if nothing had changed. But so many things have changed. A lot has been going on in his life and we had a chance to catch up on that.
After our time was up I went home feeling very relaxed and happy. Even if we don't see each other again I am left with a good feeling and I think that is all I needed.

Laredo

My trip to Laredo was very productive. We got a lot accomplished on the first day we were there so we did not have any meetings on Tuesday.
Our meetings were not over until late in the evening on Monday so by the time we crossed the border most of the shops and little markets were already closed. Everything, except the bars, close at 8 p.m. in the Nuevo Laredo side. We were able to find a liquor store and we each bought a bottle of tequila.

The next day we woke up early and left the hotel around 8:30 to start our day of shopping. My co-worker just got a new apartment and she was looking for plates and other kitchen accessories in the bright blues and reds. We went to so many shops looking for these things and finally we found something in the Nuevo Laredo side. We also found another great deal on tequila, we went to this little shop a few blocks from the main street and the tequila was really cheap so we had to buy more bottles. I think I have enough liquor to last me the rest of the year.

Our flight got delayed for almost 4 hours so we were stuck in the airport for all of that time. We were both very tired so we were not the most pleasant people to be around with. At one point I got locked out of the airport, after we were notified of our flight delay I wanted to go downstairs to the ONLY store in the airport and when I tried to come back up I was told they were going to be closing the gates and I would have to wait for 40 minutes until the gate workers came back up. To top it all off the Laredo International Airport did not have running water in the restrooms. It was a crazy few hours. I finally got home and I was so tired that I just wanted to get to bed.

That is all I have...Unfortunately I don't have anything exciting to report.

Weekend Update

This turned out to be a GREAT weekend. I was extremely busy but I had a lot of fun.
On Friday I went to the rehearsal dinner for my friend Kerry's wedding at Reata's and the food was great. She had the rehearsal dinner on the rooftop patio and for this time of the year in TX she got really lucky. The weather was perfect for terrace sitting, the wind was blowing, the birds were chirping, and we had a perfect view of the Oscar de la Hoya promotion fights that were going on in Sundance Square. My friend Ivan agreed to go with me and after the dinner we went to Vivid for a little while. I was very tired so we left the bar kind of early.

On Saturday we had the wedding and again Ivan was my date. Kerry looked beautiful!!! Her dress was amazing and it looked as if she was glowing. I was an usher. After the ceremony I met Ivan at the reception and we hanged out there until around 10:30 until we left to meet up with Chico and his friends and Seyd and Ash and their friends.
Drinking with these folks is always a lot of fun. It was Chico's b-day so he got pretty wasted but we all had a good time. Except maybe Sebastian and Ben, after we went to the second bar they decided to leave b/c it was to hot.

That is really it for the weekend. On Sunday I slept all day and made a miserable attempt to try to get ready for my trip to Laredo. I ended up packing on Monday morning and I was in a rush to get to the airport.

The Ex

There are lots of updates from the last 4 or 5 days but I will have to post them in several different post as I get a chance.
I am back in town and I have so much to catch up on.

THE EX:
The ex and I have been emailing each other back and forth and we have decided to meet for coffee on Thursday after work. He choose "our old coffee shop" because he wanted to "see how it was holding up". I thought that was very sweet.

I am not really expecting anything. I just want to catch up and see how he is doing. He was a BIG part of my life for 7 months and I can't see myself not talking to him for the rest of my life. I don't want to get back together and I don't want to fall in love with him. But who knows, I have not sat down and talked to him in a while so we will see how the conversation goes.

The thing with Ryan is definitely over. We meet up for coffee last week and he was definitely more interesting when I was drunk. He is very cute but not someone who could keep me interested for a long period of time.

Scheduling Problems!!!

I feel like such a retard right now. One of my employees and I are flying down to Laredo for meetings on Monday with our Mexican partners and I created a mess or a "desmadre" like my counterpart told me.
They are under the impression we are meeting all day on Monday and we are under the impression that we are meeting all day on Tuesday. They are going back to Mexico City on Monday night so they won't be able to meet with us on Tuesday and we won't arrive until mid-day on Monday. Anyway, it is a HUGE mess and I am trying to figure things out as I write.
I am going to request that someone else take care of planning from now on.
Maybe I just need a vacation.

Life and the complications it comes with

A few post back I broke about calling my ex seeing how he was doing. Instead I sent him a birthday e-card for his b-day last month and this is the responce I received.

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Cesar,

Thank you so much for remembering the grand 'ol day! Yes, I'm a quarter-of-a-century old now! Can you believe that??

I hope life is treating you well. Everything is just rocking and rolling on this side of the world. Let me know how you're doing. Hey, we never got together for the "catch-up" coffee meet! Are you still interested in doing that sometime soon? Sorry! I'm really bad, you know me!

Hope to hear from you soon.

Take care,
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Ivan and I were talking about him last night while we were at the bar The Library, I am not sure how he came up but it was decided it was a good thing I didn't call him. I am curious to see what has been going on in his life for the past 1 so I may reply to this email and try to plan dinner or coffee to catch up.

Not sure yet. What do you think?

the following has been submitted by a guestwriter.

i enjoy checking this site out regularly. the one thing i think is truly unique is cesar’s restaurant choices on the side bar. one additional recommendation...
today i visited grill 400, a locally owned restaurant in dallas. this was my second visit, and a more enjoyable one. the grill, where most items are grilled, is quite the trendy little place in oak cliff. surprised? dont be. you walk in and you can immediately tell you'll love the place. if youre lucky, youll get to sit in the back section; this will allow you to take a close look at the art pieces along the walls. and go ahead and stop to look at the details in the art. most people do. also, feel free to use the crayons provided. recommended plates: salmon (about $16; lunch specials start at $7.)
with that being said, a friend of mine has decided to get married. this is a good thing. it may be a bit early for him to be doing this (he is currently in med school), but hes intelligent and knows what hes doing. and im sure he realizes it may be tough. i met him, mike, during my first semester of grad school. i had known his brother for a long time, so mike and i quickly became very good friends. hes very smart, athletic, and generous (and straight). it didnt take me long to fall for him. no-he never lead me on, or gave me mixed signals. he was just himself. and a very good friend. it was hard for me to return the friendship because of how i felt. the feelings lasted a while. and some may still linger. but i dont always think with my heart. i know whats there and what isnt. he isnt. and thats okay. ive learned to be a better friend to him during the past two years. and he knows that. ive never held on to the idea of us. but on the same note, ive liked the feelings i had. as shitty as they may have been at times.
when he told me of the ring, i stayed quiet for a couple of seconds. then he asked if i wasnt happy for him. of course i was. i am. shes good to him. still, its a little sad, you know. its hard to explain how you sometimes have to suck it up. sometimes, swallowing that knot in your throat works for the best. doing it tho, made me realize what im looking for. im so ready for something like that. and with time, itll happen. when i was at his brother’s wedding last year, i truly felt like i could be that happy one day. as laid back, and fun, and drunk as the groom was, you could clearly see a feeling of security in him and his wife. i think mike is ready for that. and i know i want to be.
this is more personal than i usually get. i cant write about this on my site, so, thanks cesar, for letting me do this.

No A/C in TX? That is just Crazy!!!

I need sleep!!
As always I have been running around way to much these last few days and I have not had a chance to make an entry. I can't wait to be one of those people who are content sitting at home watching t.v. or doing absolutely nothing. I am way to hyper to do any of that right now.

My a/c broke on Monday night and I have been trying to get someone out to repair it. They won't be able to come out until Thursday between 12 and 3 p.m. I have a seminar in Dallas on this day so I wont be home. Luckily my friend Will volunteered to come over and wait for the repair man. Am I lucky or what? I can't remember who I was talking to the other day about friends, it could have been my sister in CA or it could have been my friend Kim, and how lucky I am to have so many good friends in my life. I very rarely use the words "best friend" to describe a friendship I have with someone because I have so many GREAT friends that it would be hard to pick just one or two or three. Instead I use the words "good friends" to describe those people whom I have a close relationship with. I don't know where I was going with that so I will conclude by saying that I am a very lucky person to have so many wonderful people in my life.

If you are reading this...Thank you for being in my life.

Why Me???

I am so freaking bored I don't know what to do with myself. I have nothing to do today and I have been trying to look busy all day. I would go home but I have a Happy Hour for my friend Kerry who is getting married and moving to Minnesota. Kerry, why didn't you make this happy hour at 2 instead of 4? I can't take this anymore. Part of my boredom is that the program that I need to use to write training materials is down so I have to wait until they bring it back up, since it is not a big priority for them it probably won't be back up until Monday.

I have another busy weekend coming up.
Friday I am going to go see the play

La Lupe!

with my friend Seyd and his b/f Ash.
Saturday morning I am getting together with my friend Amy and her husband Dan who I have not seen in about a year. Later I will be visiting with my friend Kim who sent me an email today informing me she will be visiting DFW from California on Saturday. I love it when she is in town because I get to eat all kinds of great Vietnamese food at her mom's house.
I had to change my plans with Tomas for the weekend because of Kim but I am sure he understands. We have not hanged out together on a weekend in a very long time so I am kind of going through Tomas withdrawals. We did get together for dinner this week. He took the day off because a dog bit him on his butt and he had to go get shots. Isn't that funny? Sarah????? Are you reading this???? Now you know why I always warn you about the dogs in our neighborhood when you go on your afternoon walks. See, I am not crazy...strange dogs do bite.

I am not sure what is going on with Brian, we may get to hang out on Sunday.

Miss Universe

Does anyone else think the Miss Universe pageant is rigged? The Miss Universe pageant took place last night in Quito Ecuador and the winner was Miss Australia with the first runner up Miss USA. Miss Australia was beautiful but there were more beautiful, more graceful, more confident woven there such as Miss Paraguay and Miss India. I don’t normally watch beauty pageants but there was nothing else on last night and the heavy rain and tornado warnings kept me inside.
I am just surprised that the only two blonds in the semi-finalist got the two top positions.

Weekend Update

So much has happened since my last post, I can already tell this is going to be a long one.

Antonio (the ex):
I have decided not to call him after all. I am not saying that I don’t love him all of a sudden, not at all. What I am saying is that I thought about all of the good times we had and I thought about all of the bad times we had and it would be a very unwise choice to try to go back to the situation I had before. Don’t get me wrong, he is a great guy he is just not the best guy for me.

The weekend.
I took Friday off and a couple of friends and I drove to Houston for the long weekend and we had such a great time. We met some really great guys from Dallas while we were in Houston, something that we can’t seem to do when we are in Dallas. The three guys from Dallas (we will call them Rene, Brian, and Max) are absolutely great, they are fun, normal, and exciting. I will definitely be hanging out with them in the near future.
We also met some guy from Houston, Dwayne, James, John, and the OH so beautiful, OH so funny, and OH so HOT Adrian (give me a second while my heart skips a beat).

We got there on Friday around 3 p.m. after I got us lost for almost an hour and a half. It was my duty to print directions to the hotel and I got directions to the wrong place. We ended up driving about 1.5 hours out of the way. I know….It was all my fault and I heard about it ALL weekend. We didn’t want to go out to the bars that night because we had plans to get up around 4:30ish to go see a psychic so we just went to the movies and saw DAY AFTER TOMORROW. This is a must see movie. I liked it a lot.

Saturday we went to the psychic and afterwards we picked up Fernando’s friend Rene and went shopping. At first sight Rene seemed very queeny and very snobby but once you get to know him he is a great guy. I had a small crush on him for a day or so. After shopping we go back to the hotel and take a nap because we are all exhausted. We decide to meet Rene and his friend/boyfriend at the bars. When we get there we meet Max, a slightly more mature (mid 30’s), less outgoing person, but he is still a lot of fun. They introduce us to their friends Brian and Dwayne. Brian now lives in Dallas but is originally from Houston. We had a great time on Saturday night, I drank a lot, we didn’t dance at all, and we all fell in love with Brian. Brian has a great body, he probably works out every day of the week. Not only does he have a great body he also has a great personality and is extremely outgoing. After the clubs Rene, Max, and my group head over to Ruchis for an early breakfast.

On Sunday we were invited to a BBQ at Dwayne’s house so we decide to go and hang out with them for a while. We get there and there and everyone from the night before was there so it was very comfortable. There were a few other people there and they were all very cool and down to earth. About 20 minutes after we get there I hear through the gayvine that Brian thinks I am cute. I don’t really pay to much attention to this rumor because I figured my friend who told me had just misunderstood or was taking his comments out of context. I go about my business and Brian and I end up talking for a while. Not in a romantic sort of way but just talking and getting to know each other. After the bbq we end up going back to the hotel and taking a nap because we are going to be going to the bars around 7. The bars were packed for a Sunday night, I have come to the conclusion that Houstonians are a bunch of DRUNKS!! I love them!!!
We meet up with everyone and after a few drinks I end up talking to Brian again, did I mention he is hot? Again not romantically just talking.
About 20 minutes later the most beautiful black man I have ever seen walks over in my direction, gives me a smile and starts talking to me. His name is Adrian he is 26 and he is just perfect. Absolutely perfect. Great smile, great personality, and beautiful. We talk for a while and then his friend comes over and talks to me. Had I not known that Brian was interested in me I would have left with Adrian and had our own fun somewhere else. Anyway, once Adrian walked away it gave Brian the courage to tell me he was interested in me. All it took was someone else showing an interest but he told me. By this time I don’t even know how many drinks we have had but we have been drinking since 7 and it was probably around 10. The drinks just kept coming, I don’t know who was paying for them but I had a drink in my hand at all times.
We decide to leave the bar we were in and walk across the street to a second bar, once there Brian’s best friend Dwayne pulls me aside and either gives me advice or is trying to scare me away. I still can’t decide which. He told me a lot of interesting things about Brian and what I needed to do to make sure I didn’t scare him away. It was a very awkward conversation. Brian and I had the chance to talk through out the night and get to know each other. I was totally drunk so I probably told him a lot more than he should know. At the end of the night he gave me his number and I was suppose to call him on Monday after 3 p.m. when I got back to Fort Worth.
My friend and I ended up going to eat after the bars and while we were sitting there he called one of my friends to talk to me and he called my friend again the next day to tell me he was home. I finally gave him my cell number and agreed that I would call him when I got home. Anyway, we have talked four times and he seems like a great person. I am not sure that it is going anywhere because I am not normally attracted to guys like him but he is the sweetest, smartest guy ever.

Stay tuned. More news to come and I promise I will keep it short.

Me encuentro con mucho que decir pero las palabras no me salen.

Llamo y cuelgo en cuanto su machina responde. No quiero dejar menseja por que ya que deje mensaje no voy a poder hablar para atraz. Quiero hablar con el pero la verdad es que no se por donde empesar. A pasado tanto tiempo que quizas el ya no sea el mismo, quizas yo ya no se el mismo.

Tantas cosas pasan por mi cabeza que ya no se en que pensar, necesito distraerme un poco pero no tengo la energia para salir de casa.

Intentare hablarle otra vez manana. Ojala este cuento tenga un buen fin.

My Decision

I have decided not to take the job offer I received at 5:30 on Friday afternoon. For many this decision will be a bit shocking considering how much they were offering but I have decided the environment in which I work is more important than making a few extra dollars. Other things that helped me make my decision were
1. I am not a big fan of 10 or 11 hour days.
2. I would not be able to attend school with my work schedule
3. I really like my job

That is my decision.

Traumatic Experience!!

I was stuck in an elevator at work for 40 minutes today. The worse part about it is that I was in there with 12 people. We could not sit, we could not shift, we could not breathe. It was horrible. I think I have been emotionally scared for life. O.K. well, maybe just until the end of the day.
It wasn’t so bad until someone announced they were claustrophobic and started to exaggerate. I know there are a lot of claustrophobic people out there and there were actually 3 in the elevator with us but the two other ones were acting just fine. The one that was loosing control was my boss’s boss. I was on the phone with security people trying to explain to them what was going on and they were having a hard time hearing me so she started to scream. I swear she is psycho. I have never talked about her before on my blog because someone from work may read it one day but right now I don’t care.
When I talk about her with my friends I either refer to her as Crazy or My Psycho Boss. After she stopped screaming she got on the phone with her fiancé, who she met 2 months ago and is now engaged to and will marry in less than 2 weeks, and was all lovey-dovey. It was sick!!!!
Anyway, 40 minutes later we were all HOT, sweaty, and I was getting agitated. Everyone in the elevator was talking and it was getting loud and psycho was back to being her giggly-neurotic self. A few minutes later she said she was feeling sick and was going to throw up, I looked at her and told her “Open your purse because you are not going to throw up on me” she looked at me and got tears in her eyes. It pisses me off because she just likes the attention. She was fine when we were in the elevator and as soon as she got out and there was an audience, it was lunch time and everyone was in the lobby, she started to cry and howl. It was so embarrassing, how can someone so disturbed make it to the ranks of upper management?

We did have some funny conversation in the elevator. One of the ladies on the elevator was wearing her blouse inside out and that sparked some interesting topics about people doing summersaults in their underwear but I will leave that for another time.
We also went back to primitive grooming rituals, a lady that was standing behind me picked something out of my hair, kept touching my ass, and started to blow on my neck. It was all very strange but it was quite funny.

We were finally rescued by the Fire Department and the Otis elevator repair people, I spoke with the firemen and the Otis guys and apparently it was just an elevator malfunction. While we were in there I was speaking with the security guy and they were having a lot of problems, they were considering coming in through the side panels because the doors would not open.

I found I can keep my cool in most situations; it just depends on the people that are in these situations with me. If I know you like attention don’t expect me to be to concerned with your pitiful plights but if I know you are concerned I will do my best to try to consol you.

Enough of me ranting and raving. We did have a wonderful lunch experience, luckily she went back to her office because she was to upset (psycho) and the company and the food was exceptionally good. I don’t know if it was because it was almost 1 and I normally eat around 11:30 but it was good.

Moral of the story: Never, EVER, get stuck in an elevator with Psycho boss!!!!

Tired....

I was out ill yesterday and today I feel exhausted. By ill I mean Ill, wink, wink. I did a lot of running around and I spent a lot of time in Dallas. The full story to be published later once I feel more comfortable about what I did. It wasn't anything bad.

After I ran my errands I picked up my friend Chico for lunch and we went to Mo Mo's Pasta off of Knox. It was an interesting little place, the restaurant is Italian, the waiter was Mexican, and the music playing in the background was Middle Eastern. The food was great and I would definitely go back. After the restaurant we went to the little Italian gelatto place next door and both of my credit cards were declined. It was extremely embarrassing, not b/c they were declined but because the guy was very cute and he had a great accent. I only have two cards, my check card, and a regular credit card and they were both declined. I was very confused because I have money or credit in both of my accounts. I told the guy I was embarrassed and he teased me about it a little. Since I don't carry cash Chico had to pay for me. I love Chico! On the way out he guy behind the counter told they were having problems with their machine and that it wasn't my card. I felt so relieved that he knew I wasn't a dead-beat. If he hadn't told me that I was going to run to the bank and get him a copy of my financial statement...he was cute :)

That is it...nothing new going on since my last post.

Oh, I did start watching Colonial House! on PBS and I am hooked. The series started on Monday night and it continued on Tuesday, this show is better than any reality t.v. show on the other networks. The show has been full of drama and excitement. In the first episode the colonist receive news that the governors daughters fiance has been killed in a car accident and her whole family had to leave. Once they leave the colony starts to fall apart, there is no order and everyone does what they want. In the next episode the governor returns alone and he starts to take control of the colony, he starts handing out punishments like there is no tomorrow, at one point everyone in the colony was wearing a letter on their clothing to signify what wrong they had committed.
On Tuesday night Jonathon Allen, one of the servants, came out of the closet to the whole community during a Sabbath sermon. It was very funny to see the shocked look on the Governor and his family, his family is very conservative and religions from TX.

That is all I have for now. I have to get to work, I will be gone for the majority of the day at a seminar and I have over 200 emails to catch up on. I think I will be able to delete most of them but I still have to read them....damn work...