Wednesday, March 17, 2004

Estoy tan aburido que no se que hacer!!!!
Ayudame Porfa!!!!
Acabo de ir a Starbucks por un cafe, espero que esto me despierte un poco y me ayude a seguir con mi dia.
Tengo una junta a las 4, si no me fuera a casa. Que voy hacer?
Estas ahi? Ayudame!!!
Maybe I should get a Dog. I really want a Springer Spaniel because they are so smart but I may just get a smaller dog. I love the Havanesse but they have long hair and probably shed a lot. I want a dog that doesn't shed much if at all.
I am scared of dogs....so I will have to get a dog that is very friendly and one that doesn't require much exercise.
Uhhhhmmm, I think I just described a cat!??!

I am not really sure what's going on but I don't like it!!!
For some reason, these past few days I have been feeling extremely alone. I have been surrounded by people all week but yet there is something else missing.
I have been thinking about my ex a lot lately and I think that part of that reason is because I have been hanging around Tomas. There are certain things that he does that remind me of him. Part of it is his "care-free" attitude, another part is his I come first way of doing things. I am not saying he is selfish but he has things he needs to get done and it seems he expects everyone else to conform to his schedule. I never did that with Antonio, I am not doing it with Tomas.
I don't like Tomas in a romantic sort of way.

So last night I decided to call Ethan and see what he was doing. I called and he did not answer....Again....I left a message and basically told him that I wanted to know if he was mad at me and not calling me back because I had already left him a couple of messages. I told him that I wanted to know so that I did not waste my time and so that I did not waste his.
If he is not mature enough to tell someone when he is upset at them then I am not going to worry about his friendship. He was way to many issues and I don't feel like shouldering any of them at this time. I have my own things to deal with.

On a good note: I am off on Friday!!!!!!
I am having a home security system installed and I am going to mow the lawn. I may go do some shopping or go to the museum. I am not sure how much free time I am going to have or how long it will take them to install the security system. IT is just going to be GREAT to have the day off and relax a bit. I do need to clean the house so I will do some of that.....maybe draw or paint a little. I also need to get my camera out and start playing around with it. It has spent way to many years in the closet.

Monday, March 15, 2004

It was a weekend...a long weekend. Those are not words you hear often but I will give you some time to digest.

I tried the whole cooking thing again this weekend and I have decided I am a horrible cook. Horrible. I was trying out a new recipe from a magazine and I did everything exactly as the recipe called for, or so I thought, and at the end it didn't quite taste right. My friends Sarah & Will come over right as I was about to finish and we looked at the recipe again...apparently "let stand" means turn off the flame. Why couldn't they just say that? While Will was there he went through other cooking terms that I will need to know if I am going to try this again. I am seriously considering sticking with making sandwiches and boiling water.

Will is going to come over next weekend and he is going to stay with me as I cook. I don't really want him to come over because when he does I usually just let him take over and does all of the cooking while I sit down drink wine with Sarah (Good Times) or I just watch. Hopefully that won't happen this coming weekend, we have already talked about it so hopefully we will both be able to refrain from "sticking" to our pattern.

Tomas kept saying that he would help me learn how to cook but to this date he has not done it. We have talked about it several times but when it comes down to it he doesn't do it. And I hate to ask him again, I don't want to be a bother. Hopefully with Will's help I will become the best Chef that ever walked FW. :)