Confessions

O.K. I have another confession, and I feel like I should make this confession before I go out and indulge this weekend.
I like movies about dancing. I know, most of them are bad but I still go and see them or rent them. I think it might be the gay genes.
This weekend I am going to try to convince my friend Hawk to go see Tale the Lead with me. Actually, I am just going to force him to go and make him sit through this movie like he made me sit through Charlies Angels, Full Throttle.

Yea, so I love dance movies, especially when they involve inner city kids. Do you remember Save the Last Dance? What a great story, if you haven't seen it you should rent it this weekend and make it a block buster night.

Anyway, I hope you guys have a great weekend. It's going to rain here this weekend so I am not sure what I am doing. I may be going out with a couple of my lesbian friends, that should be fun.

What are you doing? Do you like dance movies?

Dreams, Random Comments and Updates

It's Thursday and I have never been so glad to see the weekend.

• I took most of the day off from work yesterday. I came into the office to create some reports for my vp and then I went home. It was a perfect day for being at home under the covers and sleeping. I am feeling a lot better today.

• I finished my paper yesterday. I submitted my rough draft for review last week and I got a note from my professor that said and I quote “Your paper sucks!” Well, maybe that’s not what he said but I can read between the lines so I made a lot of changes yesterday and I included a bunch of crap that will make him happy.

• I finish school in 2 weeks.

• Cirque du Soleil was on Tuesday. The show was very good, a bit different than other Cirque shows but it was still good. All of the alcohol I consumed before hand probably didn’t hurt either.

That’s all I have. I am spending the weekend with my family; I am going to my nephew’s soccer game.

Oh, I had another weird dream last night. My family (mother, father, little brother, maybe my brothers and sisters) were sitting in a theater along with other people. I can’t recall if we were watching something or listening to a speaker, it was probably the latter. My parents and I are in the front row and my little brother was a few rows back. I think I was a cop in my dream. For some reason my little brother took out a gun and wanted to shoot me. I, being a cop, told everyone to get down but nobody moved. I went down and was hiding behind the chairs and my brother was trying to shoot me but instead shot my father. We tried to stop the bleeding and all my dad wanted was a drink.
I don’t remember the rest but I do remember waking up and trying to figure out a way of shifting the blame away from my brother.

What do you think it means?
If someone you loved committed a crime would you try to protect them?

Career advice

There are a couple of people in my industry that I depend on for career advice. I sent my friends an email yesterday asking them for advice on some things I am planning on doing and one of them replied and was a BIG help. The thing I like about these people is that they totally get it, partly because they work in the same industry and partly because they know what I want.

I use to work with one of them and we would always share Mexican home remedies when we were sick. If you have ojo get some eggs and do a barida (sweeping), if your are praying for something, turn your saints upside down. etc. Anyway, she replied and this is what she said:

"I will have my fingers crossed, the candles burning, the eggs boiling, praying to all the saints and I will be pulling my hair for you. in other words I will be doing all the Mexican home remedies to send you good vibes."

I thought it was hilarious so I had to share.

My Television is Haunted

I normally go home for lunch and I either take a short nap or I read the paper depending on my mood. Yesterday I watched Martha Steward. Have you seen her show? It's actually pretty good. Anyway, when I was getting ready to leave I tried to turn off my television but it wouldn't turn off, I thought it was haunted. The night before I watched an episode of the Twilight Zone where two kids are haunting a house so I was a little scared. I just ended up unplugging the television but now it won't work at all. It could be a blessing in disguise, I am going to use the time I normally spend watching television reading or doing something else that's productive.
O.K. the truth is that I really don't have the extra cash to spend on a television.

Check out the competition

Yea, so today is another multiple-post day. I just wanted to update on my weekend.

I really wanted to concentrate on my paper this weekend so I didn't make any plans but sometimes life has its own little plans. On Saturday I decided to go to the office and get some school work done because I knew that if I stayed home I would get distracted and ignore my paper. I did manage to get a lot done which was cool.
Saturday afternoon was a completely different story. I ended up running errands with a friend and Saturday night was totally wasted. I ended up going out to the bars with this guy I know. We use to kind of see each other...now we are just friends(?). But here's a funny story for you, while we were at the club we ran into this guy I am kind of seeing (notice how I only kind of see guys)and they were both totally sizing each other up. It was kind of funny and cute at the same time. I quickly got the situation under control and I was able to prevent a bar fight (O.K. I am exaggerating A LOT...there was never really a threat of a bar fight). But it was a little flattering... it was all over little ol' me. Today I got a call from the guy guy we ran into asking me if I was dating the guy I was there with.

The plan for next weekend - Go out, celebrate the completion of my finance paper, and get drunk! Anybody want to join me?

Break me off, show me what you are worth

I signed up for classes and I am pretty excited about the classes I am taking over the summer trimester. I know, I know its very dorky to be excited about classes but both of the classes sound pretty interesting. I am taking a process mapping and a negotiations class.
They should both be pretty easy but I am really looking forward to the process mapping class. I just found out that this guy I know is going to be in my negotiations class. He is a nice guy but can be a bit overbearing so I have already told him I will NOT be sitting next to him. I know it was kind of rude but if I sit next to him I won't pay attention and I really want to keep my GPA up just in case I decide to go to law school.

O.K. so here is the story that goes with the title. Sunday morning I was working on my paper (yes still) and I sent one of my friends a text message asking him how to calculate a companies tax rate. I get a call back, we chit chat for a few minutes and he say "I will help you but you have to break me off, it's been a while." I thought he was kidding so I went along with it and I said "Sure, if that is what it takes to finish my paper." We talked some more about what kind of help I need and just for the sake of clarification I said "I was joking about breaking you off, you know that right" to which he replied "I wasn't".
So here is the question for the day, when is it O.K. to use sex to get what you want? Is it ever O.K?

For those of you who don't know what break me off means, click here.

Just for the record, I would not have sex just because he helped me on my paper.
I promise to stop talking about this damn paper on Thursday. After that day I will no mention it again unless I get a really bad grade :)

It's O.K. to whore yourself out...as long as it's for a good cause

Have I mentioned how I really like my new boss'? I do. I think I am going to learn a lot from them. I kind of become the numbers/project/go-to guy in the department for the vp and the manager. I like that because I have a lot of free time on my hands and working on these projects gives me something to do. It also gives me visibility and hopefully they will think of me when they start hiring for the senior analyst. We are also going to start doing some projects that might require traveling, so I am totally on board for that. I guess you can say I am trying to get on their good sides. I am not kissing their ass, I am just doing my job.

On a similar subject - I was talking to a guy I know and he canceled our dinner plans because he needed to take someone to dinner and ask him for a favor for his non-profit organization. Non-profit work is all about whoring yourself out. It is all about who you know and how they can help you achieve your organizations goals. It's true, you have to whore yourself out. Some call it networking but lets call it what it is...whoring yourself out.

What do you have going on this weekend? Anything fun and exciting? I have absolutely nothing planned. I may try to catch a movie with my friend Hawk. We also have dinner plans for Sunday but I may cancel because it will interfere with Grey's Anatomy. Other than that I will just be relaxing at home.

Have Medical Insurance, Will Date

I was reading The Wall Street Journal yesterday and there it is an article titled "Got Abs? Personality? Health Insurance Won't Hurt, Either." Apparently having health insurance is considered HOT these days among online daters. I found the article a bit funny, it says that people who have health insurance "flaunt it as an asset". For those of you who are single, do you consider health coverage as a turn on or is the WSJ on crack?

On a somewhat related note, my friend Chico and I are thinking about doing the speed dating thing. Basically you go to a place and you have a date every 15 minutes. You sit at a table and men come to you, you interview each other and at the end you tell the organizers who you would like to see again. If both of you like each other then they give you each others numbers. It sounds fun, I could potentially have about 30 dates in one night...that could be more than I had in the last few months.
Have you heard of this before? Have you heard any positive/negative feedback? Would you do it?

Confession
I have one more confession that I want to share with you guys. I haven't shaved in 5 days. 5 Days!
Two days without shaving gives me the sexy stubble look. Five days without shaving makes me look like a homeless person. I am shaving tomorrow.

Confessions

So I mentioned I went to the doctor yesterday. It seems like my body hates me. Those of you that know me, know I have had some minor health issues over the last few years. I had some procedures done a year or two ago that was suppose to take care of everything but it seems like things are back again. My doctor put me on medication so hopefully it will take care of that. Anyway, so now my confession -

confession 1
Every time I go see my gastroenterologist I wear my trashy, sluty, whore's underwear. Not because I think anything is going to happen with my doctor but because every time I see him I have to strip down to my underwear and get in one of those hospital gowns. I don't buy special underwear for my doctor, apparently...according to some of my friends...all of my underwear is trashy, sluty, and whore's.
I am sure my doctor things it's a treat. ;)

confession 2
I hate talking on the phone. I hate it. And I hate returning phone calls just as much. Every time I call someone I secretly hope they don't pick up and it sends me to their voice mail and they forget to call me back. Next time I call you, send me to your voice mail.
(There are some exceptions...I love talking to my KB, Chico, SM, and Juan!!!)

Where does the time go?

It is almost 11 am and I have no clue where my morning went. I had plans of writing a great post today about how great my evening was. But I am afraid I don't really have time anymore.

I have been working on reports for my new vp and they are really consuming my every minute.

Now I am off to see the wizard doctor. Nothing serious, don't worry.

Have a great Tuesday!!!

Oh, one more thing. I am going to FW this afternoon (again) and I am planning on picking up some hand made flower tortillas, hand made corn torillas, fresh salsa, Mexican sweet bread, and tamales. I am so excited, dinner at my house :)

Turn Around, Don't Drown.

I really like the new Mary J. Blige video Can't Be Without You. I just love the lyrics.

How was your weekend? Mine was rather uneventful. Did you guys see the news? A lot of Dallas flooded so I was forced to stay in most of the weekend. I live about 10 blocks away from one of the places that was heavily flooded. It was scary. I was considering going to buy a canoe or a small boat in case the floods came into my part of town. It is a good thing I don't live in a flood zone. It is still raining pretty bad, keep your fingers crossed and hope it doesn't flood my house.

I went to go see the movie V for vendetta with my friend Juan and it is amazing. You should go check it out. It has action, romance, comedy...well no comedy but it was still very good. I give it a 4 out of 5 stars. I even jumped a little in a couple of scenes. There are a lot of similarities between the movie and the current situation in the U.S.

I also went to go watch the play I am my own wife. It was a one person play. I have never really been a big fan of one person plays but I was really impressed that the actor was able to keep up with all of the characters and made me believe that each time he spoke it was a different character.

After the play Chico and I went go the Latino gay clubs where we were joined by Sergio. They were empty so we decided to go gay strip. We drank a lot, danced a little, and had a good time. I got home around 4 a.m. and picked up some fast food on the way home. I woke up with a horrible hang over to a call from my tenant in FW. It wasn't anything major so we took care of it over the phone. The rest of the day was pretty lazy, I did laundry, homework, and chatted online.

Try to have a good week!

Update
So my home didn't flood over night, which I was very thankful for but others weren't as lucky. There was even one fatality that I know of.
On my way to work this morning there was a building that colapsed because of the weight of water. Isn't that crazy?
Also, the parking garage at work was flooded so there is all kind of debris and lots and lots of mud.

Let me see you One Two Step

I had an interesting evening last night. I had a meeting for the non-profit where I drank way to much. Afterwards I went over to the Round Up for a little country dancing. They have classes on Thursdays to teach you how to dance so a few of the people I was with wanted to go. I gave it a good try and I was very unsuccessful. I am not very coordinated when it comes to dancing with other people or doing line dancing. But I did try. I am thinking about going back next week and trying it again, although I would really much rather take some Salsa lessons.

I am not sure what I am doing this weekend. I am going to watch a play but I am not really sure what it's all about.

What do you have going on this weekend?



From Life's Little Instruction Book, Volume II

533 - Create a little signal only your wife knows so that you can show her you love her across a crowded room.

Notify your Face

I am not ashamed to say that I LOVE Ricky Martin. There is no point to the story, I am just listening to the cd and I wanted to share with you guys. :) If he was here I would tell him "I don't care I just want to be yours".



O.K. so on to other news. I have a new VP and we get to meet him today. He is like a rock star in the Import/Export world. I have meet him before at seminars, industry training, etc. He has written several books and is always invited to speak at major conferences when changes in the industry are about to take place. I am not sure if I am going to faint when I meet him or if I will have my pen and book ready for an autographs. Every time my I think about it, my heart skips a beat.
Alright, I am joking about the autograph and the heart thing. But it is kind of exciting. He will add an additional layer between me and the Wicked Witch and he definitely knows what he is talking about, maybe there will be some good changes in this department.


From Life's Little Instruction Book, Volume II

517 - When you feel terrific, notify your face.

My inner Diva

I am trying to pin-point the exact day and time I become so absent minded. This morning as I am driving off to work I realize I forgot to comb my hair. I don't know if I mentioned this before or not but the last time I flew I lost my ticket 2 times before I had to board. Yeap, twice. The gate attendants were not very happy with me.

A lot of times I just chuck it up to my sleep deprived state but I will have to get it checked out eventually, alzheimer's runs in the family.

Speaking of sleep deprived, I stayed up until 12:30 watching the first two hour re-run of America's Next Top Model. Is anyone else watching this show? I am hooked! It could just be my inner diva trying to get out but I love it. I am going to make my prediction now and say that the two finalist will be Nnenna and Kari. But Nnenna will be the winner. I also think Wendy and Brooke are very pretty but I don't think they will win.

How about American Idol, is anyone watching that show? Does anyone else think Ryan Seacrest is annoying and immature? I don't really know who is going to win yet, I just know it will be one of the women. I am not to impressed with any of the guys so far.

Back to my sleep deprived state. So this morning I hit the snooze button for 30 minutes before I actually got out of bed. This is my morning routine, the alarm goes off every 5 minutes...I hit snooze...it goes off again...until I decide to get up. I use to be such a morning person, what happened to me?

P.S. My little brother is coming into town today and will be spending a couple of days with me. I am not sure what to do with a heterosexual 21 year old male. Any suggestions? I have a meeting tomorrow afternoon with a bunch of 'mos so I may take him to that and then to a straight happy hour afterwards. Suggestions please?

From Life's Little Instruction Book, Volume II

513 - Never laugh at anyone's' dreams.

Websites

I had a pretty uneventful evening so I don't have much to report. So instead I am going to share a couple of website I like.

Pandora
Pandora is an online music service that plays songs based on the songs you have told it you like. It goes off of rhythm, beats, etc. Give it a try.

Meebo
Meebo is a web based messaging system that allows you to be signed on to MSN, Yahoo, AOL, ICQ, and others at the same time from one window. I spend a lot of time on here chatting during the work week.

From Life's Little Instruction Book, Volume II

512 - Believe in Love at first sight.

Monday Post 3

I know it has only been a couple of hours but I have some updates:

1. Do you remember the guy I talked about that was thinking of moving to my complex? Well, he isn't :) His bid was rejected. My friend told me this morning and I was a little sad because I had gotten use to the idea.

2. I just got a call from one of my friends and she is moving to Los Angeles. Her husband got a job there and now they are moving at the end of the month. I am happy for her because she loves it there but I am a little jealous because I am going to stay here.

3. I just took my Finance midterm and I totally rocked it out. And when I say I totally rock it I mean I didn't totally fail like I thought I was going to do. I think I will end up getting an 80 on the exam which is low, but it is a lot higher than I thought my grade was going to be.

4. I lost my hammer. I don't know where it is so I may have to go buy one today. I do have two Home Depot gift certificates so I will put them to good use.

5. I have a lot of gift certificates right now. When I moved and bought my condo some people gave me gift cards as a "congratulations on your new place" or "house warming" gift type of thing. Although I never had a house warming party. Isn't that nice?

I have more but I feel I should keep my rambling to 5 points. Any more would just be crazy.

Monday Post 2

Yea, so today is going to be a multiple post day. Mainly because I am delirious.

So I always have the most interesting conversations with my friend KB (see link on the side). This morning she calls me and gives me some GREAT news and to ask me for advice and in my delirium I am not really being very helpful so she tells me "Where you even listening? It's like I am speaking with a heterosexual male today." I love my KB (except when she doesn't call me back).

Did anyone watch Grey's Anatomy last night? I missed the first 20 minutes because a friend was over at my house, can anyone tell me what happened during the first 20 minutes? Anyone?

Am I going to Die?

That was part of a text message I sent my optometrist friend and my other friend that works as his office assistant. Before I tell the rest of the story I would like to say that I am sleep deprived. I went to bed at 1:30 last night because I was up working and the damn finance paper. I have made some progress but I still need to crank out some more pages this week to turn it in on Thursday.

Last time I was at the optometrist he changed my contact lens solution to one called "Clear Care" which is a peroxide based solution that helps prevent build-up on the lens. It clearly says "Do not use in eyes" and I got a spill at the optometrist office about how it would sting if I used it in my eyes.
Well, this morning without even thinking I used it directly in my eyes. As soon as the first drop hit my eye a string of obscenities came out of my mouth cursing everyone from the ground I walk on to the skies. It was horrible! Horrible!!!
My eye is now this big red mess. It looks like I have pink eye and it still burns every time I blink. According to my friend I am not going to die so you can all breathe now but if you want to send a care package let me know and I will send you my address :)

My weekend was pretty predictable. I helped out with a garage sale for the non-profit I am part of. We made a lot of money but for the most part we were just selling to each other. I ended up leaving the garage sale with a wireless keyboard, a Sarah McLaughlin cd, and a book life's little secrets. The book is hilarious and I may use it every once in a while at the end of my post to share some of the wisdom from the book. I was going to start today but I forgot it at home.

I also had a facial, went to the St. Patrick's day parade on Sunday in the West End, the Dallas World aquarium and spent some time with my family. I love the Dallas World Aquarium. If you are ever in town you should check it out.

How was your weekend? I hope you didn't burn your eyes like I did.

Friday

Friday could not have come soon enough. I am so ready for this week to be over, although I do have a lot going on this weekend. It will still be better than being at work.

What do you have going on this weekend? Anything fun? Exciting?

I don't really have much to report today so I am gong to post this conversation I had with my co-worker as we were walking out to our cars yesterday afternoon.

J: Did you see the job opening at IBM?
Me: No, what is it for?
J: It's a sales consultant for their trade compliance software and the best part is that you can live anywhere you want.
Me: Oh, I couldn't do sales.
J: Why not? You have a great personality.
Me: Yea, but I hate people.
J: That is a good point. I hate people too.

I don't even know who you are anymore

One of my friends had a near death experience this week and now it seems he has done a 360 with his life.

He was hospitalized for a couple of days and the doctors told him that if had waited a few hours longer he would have died. If he got in a car accident and lost blood, he would die. If he fell and got hurt, he would die. Basically, he was going to die.

So after a couple of days in the hospital, a few procedures, and $9,000 later he seems to be alright. We were talking late last night and early into this morning and he has decided to make some changes in his life.

Drinking - Gone
Smoking - Gone
Coffee - Gone
Drugs - Gone
Milk - Gone

I am not sure why he is giving up milk but he has switched over to soy milk. He has also decided to buy a house and sell his business.

In the year and a half that I have known him, last night was the first time I got to really "know" him. We talked about stuff that actually matters and I couldn't help but wonder how I would feel if he was no longer in my life. I am not going to say that I love him (because someone is keeping track of how many times I fall in love this year), but I will say that I realized how much I care about him during this whole ordeal.

I am a masochist.

Well, maybe not a masochist but I do like to torture myself.

I took on the responsibility of being the chair of a committee for a non-profit organization (the same one I have written about before). I am also on the board of directors of this organization and I think I am going to have to do a lot of work that I really wasn't planning on. I knew it takes a lot of time because I was the president of the group last year but I was kind of planning on staying low this year. Oh well, maybe I can lay low next year. If any of you mo's (or anyone else) live in the DFW area and want to volunteer let me know.

Mo is short for homosexual. It's my new word, try to use it as much as possible. If you don't like that word you can use my other word. Delicious. As in "You are looking delicious today" or "That shirt looks delicious on you" or "Isn't this weather delicious?".

In other news - I have learned that a guy I used to..umm..date? no, go out with?...umm. I am not exactly sure what we were. But anyway, I learned that he is looking to buy a condo in the same complex I am in. I am not sure how I feel about it. He did call me yesterday and asked me a few questions. I was nice and told him what he wanted to know. But I don't think I want him living here. I want to make up stories about how people got shot at that unit or how horrible the neighborhood is or something. Is that terrible?

I haven't started my finance paper and I need to turn in my rough draft next week. It is going to suck. Is anyone here a finance major? Can I pay you to write my paper? :) J/K. (I am only kidding if you are, if you are willing to write my paper I am willing to pay) J/K. (No I am not).

How is your week going so far?

What do you think of me?

I am totally stealing this from Swirly Girl but I thought it was interesting.

Click here and follow the instructions.


After you are done make sure you check out Swirly Girl's muffins.

Welcome Back

Welcome back my friends from SAS.

Dreams

I had a weird dream last night. I was at school listening to a lecture from some sort of Christian Science lady. She was introduced by Donald Trump who apparently was the president of the United States. The Christian Science lady hated Donald and she went off on him. Later a few explosions were heard and we thought it was a car bomb so we started to panic. Dirty water starts coming towards us and somehow my sister and brother-in-law were with me and we started to run, as we are running the waves of water are getting higher and we are desperately trying to find shelter. We ran into one of the school buildings and we try to get to the stairwell (b/c Oprah said that was the best place to be in case of a terrorist attack) but the military was forcing us to stay on the ground level (even with all of the water) so we try to look for another access to the stairwell. When the water started to get into the building they moved us to a big conference/cafeteria type place and that is when I woke up.

What does it mean? Is anyone good at interpreting dreams?

In other news - Chico and I started playing tennis yesterday and we suck. I am not being modest, we SUCK. I think we need lessons. It was fun making Chico run back and forth across the court :) I had a good laugh.

In other news - I am really, really, really excited right now. Yesterday I got a call and I have tickets to go see Cirque du Soleil later this month at the AA Center. I love Cirque du Soleil! I am watching Delirium. I can't wait.

Collide

I spent Saturday with my niece and nephews and they completely wore me out. I took them to see the spot where John F. Kennedy got shot, to the West End, and to the Science and History Museum to see the people from Radio Disney. I didn't realize kids (ages 12, 8, 2) had so much energy.

While we were out I also picked up some visitor guides, just in case I have out of town visitors and I need to be tour guide. I am prepared, if any of you want to visit :)

That was really as exciting as my weekend got. I did some studying and I thought about starting on my paper that is due in two weeks. I am sure I will be rushing at the last minute to get it done.

I have been listening to the song Collide by Howie Day and for some reason this song makes me get all teary eyed. This would be the perfect song for a romantic movie after a guy and a girl break up and the guy is sitting by a window in NYC and it is raining outside. As the song plays in the background he is thinking of all of the happy moments they have gone through and he rushes out to find her. I love happy endings.

How was your weekend?

I need some motivation

I need someone/something to motivate me to get up in the morning and go for a jog. The weather is perfect for jogging right now I just can't seem to get out of bed. I have set my alarm to 5:30 am all of this week but when the alarm goes off I just ignore it and go back to bed until 7 am.

What motivates you to go to the gym or exercise at home?

Oh the gays

Another reason why some gay men should not be allowed to use power tools.

This video made me laugh my ass off. I especially liked it when they call each other bolimia and anarexia.

Crush from the past

I may not dislike myspace as much as I thought. I got a message yesterday from a guy I use to crush on in college. He was in my Spanish class and we never really talked much but he was friends with one of my friends so we were introduced once.

After graduation we would run into each other at the gay bars and we were always very excited to see each other but we never really exchanged names, numbers, email addresses, or body fluids contact information. The last time I saw him was about 2 years ago and he was moving to Minnesota or Wisconsin, I can't remember which. Anyway, he is back in town and we seem to be in touch now. All I need now is to figure out his name, give him my number, and schedule a dinner. I am pretty sure he has a boyfriend so it won't be going past that, it will just be nice to get to know him better.

Hump Day

I don't have anything to report today. So instead I am pointing out the blogs I recently added (two days ago) to the Blogs I Read.

I have been reading most of these blogs for a while now but I have been to lazy to add them to my list. Check them out, they are all interesting folks.

Alexander The Gay
Bedtime Stories
Me Talk Pretty Everyday
My lil sock drawer
'til the cows come home
What does the world look like

Happy Reading!