I have a league

I am tired. I am oh, so tired.
I have been working a lot lately, I seem to be enjoying my job a lot more these days and I am actually motivated to get my projects done so that is a good thing. I still don't like my company but my new VP is making a lot of changes and I hope it becomes a company I would want to work for.

I am taking Friday off and I can't wait to enjoy the day. I have some stuff planned already so I will be running around but it should still be fun.

Anyway, I was talking to a guy and he asked me if I would consider dating him. He is a nice guy and all but our personalities don't really go well together. So we talked about it and I told him that I didn't see it working out etc. So he tells me 'I didn't think you would, you are way out of my league.' Since when do I have a league? It seriously had nothing to do with his looks it was his personality.

Should I be flattered that I have a league or is that more of an insult?

Faith

I mentioned in my previous post that I was a bit stressed/anxious. I took an early lunch and I went and took care of what was bothering me.

It's weird because I should have taken care of it several months ago but for some reason I ignored it until it completely occupied my every thought from Friday though today.

It's also weird because I am not a very religious person but on Sunday I went to church. It's surprising how many people find religion or faith or whatever you want to call it in their hour of need. I went as far as trying to bargain with God. You know, "If you do _____, I promise to do _____." It seems to have worked in my case.

Anyway, everything is alright. Thanks for the text messages, voice mails, and emails. :)

The Weekend

How was your weekend?

My weekend was pretty uneventful. I did go to the gym, I am seriously committed to loosing weight this time. All I need to loose is 10 lbs and tone up. Wish me look and send good thoughts my way.

It was somewhat of stressful weekend. I spent most of the weekend trying not to think of something that has been worrying me for a few days. The more I tried to ignore the issue the more anxious I got. I know I need to deal with it but I really couldn't do anything about it until Monday so there was no point in trying to deal with it. I will take care of it Monday during lunch.

Chico and I were suppose to go to the Urban Arts Festival but when we got there it was pretty dead so we decided to go to the Main Street Fort Worth Art Festival. The FW festival is ranked number 1 in Texas and 8th in the nation. The art is pretty incredible but it is also extremely over priced. The two pictures below are from the festival:



The one below is of garden sculptures:


Rather than going out to the bars we decided to stay in, watch movies and drink. After a while we decided we were hungry and we started cooking. One should never cook after a few glasses of wine. NEVER, EVER!!
We decided we really liked garlic and used about 6 to 8 pieces of garlic in our pork. When two of my friends stopped by later that night they said they could smell the garlic in the street. Yeap, it was that much. 24 hours later my home still smells like garlic.

Funny story - one of us, I am not going to say who but it wasn't me, tried to get the pork out of the oven but forgot to use the oven mitt and grabbed the pot with his hand. He burned himself but it wasn't anything serious. It was pretty funny after it happened :) Sometimes I wish my life was recorded.

Isn't that a sign of alcoholism?

I had to lie about how much I drink. Isn't that a sign of alcoholism?

I was completing a wellness profile for my personal training session this morning and one of the questions was:

Drinking. In the past two weeks on how many days did you drink any alcoholic beverages such as beer, wine, or liquor?
➀ Did not drink in the past year
➁ None in the past two weeks
➂ One to three days
➃ Four to six days
➄ Seven to ten days
➅ Eleven to fourteen days


I lied and said One to three days. When in reality I drank Seven to ten days. I am not going to blame anyone for my drinking, I take full responsability but it is just so easy to go out every day for happy hour. Last week I went to happy hour 4 days during the week, that doesn't include Saturday or Sunday. This week I have already been drinking once and it's only Wednesday.

If I went out drinking with you last week please note that I am respectfully declining your invitation to go to Happy Hour, unless you are paying. Thanks.

New Start

I have a lot of people in my phone book, I wouldn't call them friends, I just know them from school, work, or from other activities I am involved in. There are times when I am sitting at home trying to figure out what to do for the day and I go through my whole phone book and there is really only a hand full of people I actually talk to.
I also have a lot of my friends in my phone book but for the most part it seems like I am the one making all of the effort to keep the friendship going. On Saturday I was having lunch with my friend Hawk and we were talking about three of our friends who I just can't be around anymore. It seems every time we get together all they want to do is talk bad about someone, be catty bitches, and try to make someone else feel bad. I just don't want that in my life, why do you they have to put someone else down to make themselves feel better? I just want to be around negative people. Is that so wrong? I have made sure I was "busy" the last two times they all got together.

So last night I went through my phone book and I deleted a lot of people from my contact list, I am tired of always making the effort. I am tired of always having to call you when we get together, I am tired of having meaningless friendships that only bring me down. I am tired.

Check out Swirly Girl's entry, she put's it so much better than I do.

Kids say the funniest things

I was set up on a blind date by a friend. We were all suppose to go out and just hang out but our schedules didn't work out so on Friday we decided that my blind date, lets call him C, and I would just go out by ourselves. We spoke on Friday and we decided we would take his dog for a walk on Sunday morning. I thought, wow, how creative, this is definitely something I haven't done on a first date. I was really looking forward to the date and then I realized I didn't know what the guy looked like. I called my friend to get a description but when she started off with "he's tall about 5'4 or 5'5" I realized I couldn't depend on her for a good description. He was actually about 5'11.

We met at the lake and we started walking without even talking about how far we were going to go. We start talking and getting to know each other and next thing you know an hour has gone by and we are halfway around the lake, or so we think, and try to decide if we need to turn back around or keep going. We decide to keep going going...big mistake. We were no where close to the middle.
We were almost to the end when his dog decided she was done, she was so tired we kept having to stop every 15 minutes for a rest and water and at the end she sat down and we couldn't get her back up. C decided to go get the car while I waited with the dog. It took us 3.5 hours to walk all the way around the lake and I stopped liking him about 1.5 hours into it. Not because he is a bad guy or anything but because I was tired of walking. At the end we decided to get together for dinner sometime this coming week. I will let you know how that goes.

Oh, the title of the post:
I was talking to my sister about the blind date and my niece said "Are you going to be wearing a blind fold?" My sister and I laughed.

Happy Easter

Excerpt of a conversation I had with a friend over MSN -


Friend: What did you eat for lunch?
Me: McDonald's. you?
Friend: Was it full of MEAT???
Me: Oh, I forgot you can't eat meat today. I don't really practice that stuff anyway.
Friend: you are going to HELL
Friend: HELL
Friend: Hell wants you.
Friend: HELL is going to take you
Me: LOL. Why do you have to be so mean?
Friend: You being Gay and all, you should really try to follow all the other religious things you can

I admit it.

It's true, I have been neglecting my blog this week but it has been kind of crazy. Is anyone still out there?

My new manager started on Monday and it's been a bit crazy around here. There are a lot of big changes on the way. For example, I may have to start wearing suits again, even though I don't see anyone all day.

I also got my final grades for my classes this semester. I made an A- for that horrible paper I worked on for 2 months. I am not complaining, had I been grading the papers I would have given myself a C+. It was that bad. Overall, I made a B in the class, I think that is the lowest grade I have made in grad school. I made an A in my other class, it was pretty easy so I was expecting an A in that class.

My week has been kind of bad. I hope your week has been going a lot better.

I am DONE!

I took my last final for the semester today during lunch. 5 more classes and I have my Masters! I can't wait to be done.

Now I will have a month free to do absolutely nothing. Actually, I have some things I need to do during the next month:

01. Read the stacks of books I have stacked up - for pleasure, not text books
02. Catch up on my magazine subscriptions
03. Exercise more
04. Complete an HTML class
05. Organize my home
06. Buy some art/frames for my walls
07. Finish putting up the chair guards on my wall
08. Buy some plants
09. Re-arrange my bedroom
10. Maybe make it out to California to see my parents

Survey

I have been seriously looking at gyms these last few weeks and I have found some really good gyms in my area. Some of them range from over-the-top to brummagem to your basic gyms. The prices vary just as much. I am doing a one week trial at one gym this week and I am trying out another one next week. So here is the survey -

Do you currently belong to a gym?

If yes,
How much do you pay per month?


If no,
How much would you be willing to pay for a gym membership?

Top-less Bars

Have I ever mentioned I am surrounded by countless top-less Bars and "Massage" Parlors at work? Looking out the window I can see 8 different top-less places. That's right 8, and those are just the ones on one side of the building, I am literally surrounded by them.
If I was straight I am sure I would be in heaven but since I am not I don't really find these places appealing. My new boss starts on Monday and I hope he is not the kind of man that likes to go to these sort of places and if he is, I hope he doesn't ask me to go with him during lunch one day. I hear they have a great lunch special though.

One of these days I want to take pictures of all of these classy places and post them on here.


Sleep deprived
So I think I found a solution to my sleep problem.
Meet a couple of friends at a hip restaurant for drinks and tapas. Drink yourself silly until 8 and go home and go to bed. It worked for me last night. I met Chico and his co-worker Chris for drinks at Americas and had a few drinks. I sleep really good last night, I did wake up at 1 and again at 4 because of nightmares I was having but I was able to go back to sleep pretty quickly.

What's up with me and all of these dreams lately? Last night I had a dream that terrorist has destroyed all of downtown Dallas (Lets face it, its actually not that big of a loss.) and all of California. It's a very complicated dream so I won't tell all of it. But in my dream, one of my neighbors offered me sleeping pills. Even in my dreams I need sleep.

Signs

My body is sending me signs but I just don't know how to read them. For some reason my body refused to go to sleep before midnight and I have to get up at 6:30 to get ready for work. Unfortunately I require more than six and a half hours of sleep to function in the mornings. As a result of my sleep deprived state I am slacking off in other areas of my life. I just don't have the energy to do anything so when I get home I just want to sit there and conserve energy.

I am hitting the pillow at 10 pm tonight, I may not go to sleep but I will lay there until I do. Maybe a nice bottle glass of wine will do the trick.

Weekend Stories

Soccer
The most exciting thing I did this weekend was watch my nephews soccer game. They lost but it was still fun being out there and cheering. I learned a few lessons that days
- Only cheer for your team, it doesn't matter that the other team made a goal
- Never let your 2 year old nephew run into the field with 12 year old boys chasing a ball
- Do not flirt with the referee, he might miss something important

April Fools
Here is some back up info on April Fools

I was woken up early on Saturday morning by my 6 year old niece, how early? 7 am early.
The conversation when something like this:
Me - Bueno?
Raquel - Hi Tio (tio means uncle in Spanish)
I thought she had dialed my number by mistake, who calls that early?
Me - Hi Raquel, how are you?
Raquel - Why is my mommy mad at you?
Me - Your mommy is not mad at me.
Raquel - Yes she is, she was telling my daddy she was mad at you.
Me - What did she say?
Raquel - I don't know, but she is mad at you.
Me - Let me talk to your mother.
Raquel - April Fools.
Me - What? Raquel, you don't pull an April Fools at 7 in the morning.
Raquel - Sorry.
Off she went giggling. Apparently they April Fooled all of my brothers and sisters...at 7 in the morning. We were not happy campers.

I was later woken up by Wade who called me on his way to open one of his restaurants. Why do people call me so early on Saturday morning? (well, it wasn't so early 10 am, but still)

Confessions

O.K. I have another confession, and I feel like I should make this confession before I go out and indulge this weekend.
I like movies about dancing. I know, most of them are bad but I still go and see them or rent them. I think it might be the gay genes.
This weekend I am going to try to convince my friend Hawk to go see Tale the Lead with me. Actually, I am just going to force him to go and make him sit through this movie like he made me sit through Charlies Angels, Full Throttle.

Yea, so I love dance movies, especially when they involve inner city kids. Do you remember Save the Last Dance? What a great story, if you haven't seen it you should rent it this weekend and make it a block buster night.

Anyway, I hope you guys have a great weekend. It's going to rain here this weekend so I am not sure what I am doing. I may be going out with a couple of my lesbian friends, that should be fun.

What are you doing? Do you like dance movies?

Dreams, Random Comments and Updates

It's Thursday and I have never been so glad to see the weekend.

• I took most of the day off from work yesterday. I came into the office to create some reports for my vp and then I went home. It was a perfect day for being at home under the covers and sleeping. I am feeling a lot better today.

• I finished my paper yesterday. I submitted my rough draft for review last week and I got a note from my professor that said and I quote “Your paper sucks!” Well, maybe that’s not what he said but I can read between the lines so I made a lot of changes yesterday and I included a bunch of crap that will make him happy.

• I finish school in 2 weeks.

• Cirque du Soleil was on Tuesday. The show was very good, a bit different than other Cirque shows but it was still good. All of the alcohol I consumed before hand probably didn’t hurt either.

That’s all I have. I am spending the weekend with my family; I am going to my nephew’s soccer game.

Oh, I had another weird dream last night. My family (mother, father, little brother, maybe my brothers and sisters) were sitting in a theater along with other people. I can’t recall if we were watching something or listening to a speaker, it was probably the latter. My parents and I are in the front row and my little brother was a few rows back. I think I was a cop in my dream. For some reason my little brother took out a gun and wanted to shoot me. I, being a cop, told everyone to get down but nobody moved. I went down and was hiding behind the chairs and my brother was trying to shoot me but instead shot my father. We tried to stop the bleeding and all my dad wanted was a drink.
I don’t remember the rest but I do remember waking up and trying to figure out a way of shifting the blame away from my brother.

What do you think it means?
If someone you loved committed a crime would you try to protect them?

Career advice

There are a couple of people in my industry that I depend on for career advice. I sent my friends an email yesterday asking them for advice on some things I am planning on doing and one of them replied and was a BIG help. The thing I like about these people is that they totally get it, partly because they work in the same industry and partly because they know what I want.

I use to work with one of them and we would always share Mexican home remedies when we were sick. If you have ojo get some eggs and do a barida (sweeping), if your are praying for something, turn your saints upside down. etc. Anyway, she replied and this is what she said:

"I will have my fingers crossed, the candles burning, the eggs boiling, praying to all the saints and I will be pulling my hair for you. in other words I will be doing all the Mexican home remedies to send you good vibes."

I thought it was hilarious so I had to share.

My Television is Haunted

I normally go home for lunch and I either take a short nap or I read the paper depending on my mood. Yesterday I watched Martha Steward. Have you seen her show? It's actually pretty good. Anyway, when I was getting ready to leave I tried to turn off my television but it wouldn't turn off, I thought it was haunted. The night before I watched an episode of the Twilight Zone where two kids are haunting a house so I was a little scared. I just ended up unplugging the television but now it won't work at all. It could be a blessing in disguise, I am going to use the time I normally spend watching television reading or doing something else that's productive.
O.K. the truth is that I really don't have the extra cash to spend on a television.

Check out the competition

Yea, so today is another multiple-post day. I just wanted to update on my weekend.

I really wanted to concentrate on my paper this weekend so I didn't make any plans but sometimes life has its own little plans. On Saturday I decided to go to the office and get some school work done because I knew that if I stayed home I would get distracted and ignore my paper. I did manage to get a lot done which was cool.
Saturday afternoon was a completely different story. I ended up running errands with a friend and Saturday night was totally wasted. I ended up going out to the bars with this guy I know. We use to kind of see each other...now we are just friends(?). But here's a funny story for you, while we were at the club we ran into this guy I am kind of seeing (notice how I only kind of see guys)and they were both totally sizing each other up. It was kind of funny and cute at the same time. I quickly got the situation under control and I was able to prevent a bar fight (O.K. I am exaggerating A LOT...there was never really a threat of a bar fight). But it was a little flattering... it was all over little ol' me. Today I got a call from the guy guy we ran into asking me if I was dating the guy I was there with.

The plan for next weekend - Go out, celebrate the completion of my finance paper, and get drunk! Anybody want to join me?

Break me off, show me what you are worth

I signed up for classes and I am pretty excited about the classes I am taking over the summer trimester. I know, I know its very dorky to be excited about classes but both of the classes sound pretty interesting. I am taking a process mapping and a negotiations class.
They should both be pretty easy but I am really looking forward to the process mapping class. I just found out that this guy I know is going to be in my negotiations class. He is a nice guy but can be a bit overbearing so I have already told him I will NOT be sitting next to him. I know it was kind of rude but if I sit next to him I won't pay attention and I really want to keep my GPA up just in case I decide to go to law school.

O.K. so here is the story that goes with the title. Sunday morning I was working on my paper (yes still) and I sent one of my friends a text message asking him how to calculate a companies tax rate. I get a call back, we chit chat for a few minutes and he say "I will help you but you have to break me off, it's been a while." I thought he was kidding so I went along with it and I said "Sure, if that is what it takes to finish my paper." We talked some more about what kind of help I need and just for the sake of clarification I said "I was joking about breaking you off, you know that right" to which he replied "I wasn't".
So here is the question for the day, when is it O.K. to use sex to get what you want? Is it ever O.K?

For those of you who don't know what break me off means, click here.

Just for the record, I would not have sex just because he helped me on my paper.
I promise to stop talking about this damn paper on Thursday. After that day I will no mention it again unless I get a really bad grade :)

It's O.K. to whore yourself out...as long as it's for a good cause

Have I mentioned how I really like my new boss'? I do. I think I am going to learn a lot from them. I kind of become the numbers/project/go-to guy in the department for the vp and the manager. I like that because I have a lot of free time on my hands and working on these projects gives me something to do. It also gives me visibility and hopefully they will think of me when they start hiring for the senior analyst. We are also going to start doing some projects that might require traveling, so I am totally on board for that. I guess you can say I am trying to get on their good sides. I am not kissing their ass, I am just doing my job.

On a similar subject - I was talking to a guy I know and he canceled our dinner plans because he needed to take someone to dinner and ask him for a favor for his non-profit organization. Non-profit work is all about whoring yourself out. It is all about who you know and how they can help you achieve your organizations goals. It's true, you have to whore yourself out. Some call it networking but lets call it what it is...whoring yourself out.

What do you have going on this weekend? Anything fun and exciting? I have absolutely nothing planned. I may try to catch a movie with my friend Hawk. We also have dinner plans for Sunday but I may cancel because it will interfere with Grey's Anatomy. Other than that I will just be relaxing at home.