My new diet

I have decided to go on a diet. Not a food diet, well sort of. I seem to be going out to lunch/dinner way to much. I am spending so much money that I am blowing my budget month after month.

This week alone I have gone out to dinner 3 times, lunch 4 times, and breakfast 1.

Dinner isn't cheap. Especially in Dallas. So starting tomorrow I am going to cut back. I will only go out to dinner and lunch once a week. The rest of the week I will be cooking at home.

The only thing is that I am not really good at cooking. So I need simple recipes that don't require a lot of ingredients and are fast to prepare. Any ideas?

I have mentioned I work in a pretty bad neighborhood surrounded by strip clubs, a warehouse district, and a lot of homeless people.

This morning it took me 40 minutes to get to work when it normally takes me 10-15 minutes. As I turned on the radio I heard this story. It's sad that things had to end that way.

On a different note, I think my finger is broken. I have had a pain in my finger for a couple of days. At first I thought it was arthritis but this morning I woke up in the middle of the night with a really bad pain. I am going to get a brace from the pharmacy and see if that helps. If the pain gets worse I will go to the doctor but since there really isn't anything they can do I will try to wait it out.

I hope everyone is having an exciting morning like I am.

You want me to do what?

I had a talk with my boss last week about how I am completely bored out of my mind and I have nothing to do. He gave me a couple of projects that shouldn't take me very long to complete. One of them is really interesting though, I have to work with our web developers to create a website for our department. It should be fun.

So today, my co-worker and I get an email and he is asking us to log our time by 15 minute increments. He wants to know how we spend our day. Yea, you heard right. I am being freaking micromanaged.

If you are going to pay me this much money, do you really want to micromanage me? Did you hire me because of my qualifications or do you want to spend most of your time breathing down my back?

It is frustrating. I voiced my concern so we will see what happens, he said it was only for this week so we will see.

log my time..I don't f'in believe it.
What should I log the time I just used writting this blog? General Office Duties?

Weekend, Men, and other happenings

I had a pretty uneventful weekend. I had tickets for a concert on Friday at a small venue. The concert started at 11 and we got there at 10. The place was so hot we decided to leave at 12, before the band even started playing. I swear I was going to pass out.

We went to a leather bar instead. One of my friends has been wanting to check it out for a while. They have a little store where they sell sex toys and leather products. While we were there the guy behind the counter gave us a detailed demonstration of the stuff they were selling. One of the guys I was with even tried on a few of the items. While he was in the dressing room trying on a cock ring he called me back there and I got to see his goods. I have a crush on him...I have liked him for about a year now...so it was a bit..arousing. He spent the night at my place, but he slept on the couch :(

I went to see my mom on Saturday and that afternoon I just wanted to rest. Instead a friend called me to go see a preview of the movie Dirty Laundry. It is an gay African American film that is so funny and so touching that I teared up several times during the film. If you have the opportunity, go see it (when it comes out). The after party was at a hip lounge/bar/restaurant and there were so many HOT black guys. And I mean HOT. I think I fell in love several times while I was there...Which was only about 20 minutes.

That is all. I hope everyones weekends were more interesting.

Reminisce

I was sitting in a meeting this morning and all of a sudden I feel the exact same way I felt that cold afternoon as we walked down to eat at our favorite little restaurant. It felt so real, had I closed my eyes I could have felt his arms around me, his breath as he whispered something silly.

I couldn't help it. As soon as I left the meeting I called him, I just had the urge to hear his voice. We talked for about 20 minutes and he was telling me about his white water rafting trip he just got back from and the job search. I listened.

It's funny how sometimes you miss feelings that were never really yours to begin with.

The world is out to get me

I am convinced the world has it in for me. The last few months have been nothing but one bad thing after another.
First my car.
Then my air conditioning.
Now a leak in my ceiling.

I got home last night after being out at a pool party...where I drank way to much. I heard a thumb in my kitchen and my light fixture had fallen down. When I got closer to inspect it, I noticed there was water all over the floor. I couldn't figure out where it was coming from until I took a closer look and there was a small drip coming from the ceiling.

I went and nocked on my neighbors door to make sure it wasn't coming from their place but they weren't home. After a while the water stopped so I figured it was temporary.

I went home for lunch today and my neighbor came down to talk to me and his Ozarka water bottle (2 gallon) had a leak and it spilled on the floor. So luckily it wasn't a pipe but I may still have water damage. I am trying to find someone to come out and inspect it and make sure there isn't major damage and to put my light back on.

And hopefully it won't cost to much. The neighbor has agreed to pay for everything but it still sucks.

I am convinced the world hates me...that or someone has put a curse on me...which could be likely.

Mom proofing my place

So my mom and brother stayed with me for a couple of days. Right before they arrived I cleaned and mom proofed my place to make sure she wasn't going to find any porn, condoms, handcuffs, whips, etc.

I have a lot of condoms. A LOT! Had she found them she would have been proud to know I am at least being safe.

I took the day off from work and we went and did some more shopping, lots of eating, and just spent time together. They left today so this afternoon I met up with a friend for dinner to finalize plans for an event we are planning this coming week and to gossip. Or so I thought. Towards the end of the meal I was surprised and asked to consider joining one of the local steering committees for a national non profit organization. I had heard rumors I was being considered but I thought they were just rumors. I was also asked to join this group for a political campaign in November in Minnesota or Wisconsin...one of these states. I always get these two states confused.

I am going to consider it but I think I already do to much and I don't want to be one of those people who dedicate all of my spare time to working with others. Call me selfish, call me self absorbed but I need my 'me' time.

Not sure, I will sleep on it and make a decision later. The offer hasn't been formalized and I won't have to make a decision for a few more months.

Writing with an accent

I have been working on a training manual for all of or 65,000+ employees. I sent it to my vp for revisions and corrections. Today I have been trying to incorporate his edits into my manual. All of his edits were done by hand and he has really bad writing.

I asked my co-worker to help me decipher a phrase.

Me: What does this say?
Her: inclusion of duty. Is that all? That was easy.
Me: I can't understand his writing.
Her: Your writing is worse. You write with an accent!
Me: An accent?
Her: Yes, you know. A Spanish accent.

Interesting. Can someone write with an accent?

Wrench

Do you remember the Ipod Shuffle I won back in July?

I finally got it today...a month and a half later. My original plan was to take it back to Apple and get one of the bigger ones. Well, the company I won it from for has put a wrench in my plan. They purchased it online and customized it with their company name so now I can't return it.

But I want a bigger one...the shuffle only holds like 100 songs and I have way more than that in my current mp3 player. I am going to see if I can sell it on ebay or something. Any other suggestions?

The things people do

I don't think I have mentioned that my mom is in town for a while visiting. I took the day off on Friday to go spend some time with her but all we did was shop all day. She is going to be spending all of next week with me so that should be fun...and the food should be amazing. :)

I went to my sisters house early for breakfast but we were running a little late so we just cooked something quick. My mom is not much of a breakfast person so I was surprised when she said she was going to have breakfast. The pictures below is what she had. Can you tell what it is?





If you can't tell, that is coffee...with cereal...and animal crackers. Don't judge, she was in a hurry. I tried it and it actually doesn't taste bad at all. I guess it would all depend on the kind of cereal you are having.

So this lead to a very interesting conversation and we started talking about all the things we eat that are out of the ordinary. I am sure every family has them and here are ours:

1. Pizza - When my family orders pizza we always cut tomatoes in circles and add them to the top of the pizza. We also add lettuce and maybe onions. We also add hot sauce (not the store bought but the good stuff...the home made stuff).

2. Hamburgers - We always have radishes when we have hamburgers.

This next one is just me, my family things I am weird when I do it. I chop up onions and add it to my ketchup for my fries.

They are not weird but I am sure other families don't do them.

Is there anything your family does with food that is unique?

Music

I am going on a small road trip at the end of the month and I need to load some music on my mp3 player. What are your 5 favorite songs?

Holding Hands

I went to the Farmers Market yesterday to buy vegetables and fruit for the week. Since the market is close to home I tend to run over there at least once a week to get produce rather than buying it at the grocery stores.

While walking down the vendor isles, I saw something that completely caught me off guard. I saw two guys walking and holding hands. I stared. They probably thought I was staring because I was homophobic but I was staring and silently applauding their courage.

So I started thinking...many of us in the LGBT community fight to get the same rights and respect that others have. We have protest, pride parades, letter writing campaigns, marches, etc, etc, etc. But after our organized events are over we go back to our own little communities and nobody hears from us again until something else happens.

Why do WE pretend to be invisible? I expect those who are not comfortable with us to pretend we invisible but I simply don't understand why we help them pretend we don't exist.

If we really want to be respected (not accepted, because we don't need anyone's acceptance to validate who we are) and obtain the same rights as everyone else we need to be out in our daily lives, holding hands, making them face their discomfort and see us the way we really are. Normal, just like they are.

So here are a couple of questions:

If you are gay -
Why do you pretend to be invisible?
If you don't pretend to be invisible, when did you start living your life?

If you are not gay -
What would have more impact on your life, a once a year protest or pride parade or seeing two guys or two women walking down the street holding hands?

If you are bi -
Answer either one.

It's been a long time

It has been such a long time since I have made a post. I don't really have much to say, I have had a very boring/stressful/uneventful week. Work has been a bit stressful but in a good way I guess.

I am picking up my little brother from the airport today. He is finally back from London and I can't wait to hear all of the stories and see all of the pictures.

I can finally find out why he had to sleep in the streets in Barcelona and see his mohawk in person.

For now, I am going to go have breakfast :) Have a good one.

Update: I am cooking for me and a couple of friends...someone have the fire department on standby.